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72 hrs
by valencia
So scratch what I said in the last 3 entries because so much happened in the last 72 hours. Holy crap. I don't even know where to begin but I am at work. I will write soon.
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by ohwow

Still not got much to say 😂

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Meagan's New Toy Gets Its First Workout
by "Love is like war: Easy to begin bu

Standing up, I carefully step out onto wet tiling, the plug still firmly buried in my ass.  My pussy is aching for attention.  Quickly toweling myself dry, I walk into the bedroom.  Opening the drawer of the nightstand, I take out my little silver friend, my vibrator, and set it down on the bed.  Walking over to the dresser, I grab my cell phone before walking back and climbing onto the bed.

I find Kyle’s name in my contact list and press dial.  The phone rings for several seconds.

“This is Kyle.  What is it Meg, it’s almost 11:30.”

“I know honey, but I want you to just listen. OK?”

“Listen to what?”

“Just listen.  I’ll tell you after it is all over.”

I climb up in the doggy position and reaching for my vibrator, position it against my clit and turn it on.  Simultaneously, I reach back with the other hand begin manipulating the plug that is stretching and filling my ass.  Within moments my moans fill the bedroom, drowning out David’s music.  Higher and higher I’m taken as the sexual desires, the sexual energy within me builds quickly.

Vaguely, through my increasing moaning and groaning, I hear Kyle’s voice.

“What’s happening?  What in the hell are you doing Meg?”

I don’t answer, but continue to twist and turn the butt plug while pressing the vibrator hard against my clit before sliding into my pussy and thrusting it back-and-forth.  After a few minutes, I set the tip back against my swollen clit.  The tension within me in building and I fight the urge to release. 

I want to be taken as high as I can.  I want to treasure every moment of the pleasure I’m giving myself. 

Soon I’m screaming “Yes… Yes… Oh YES… YYEESS…”

I can hardly stand it now and my moans, groans and screams get louder and louder.

Finally, I can no longer hold back the pressure.  The dam breaks and my pussy begins flooding the bed with my juices as my body convulses and shakes violently as another orgasm rips through me.

I scream out in one long, continuous stream of “YYYYYEEEEESSSS’s” as yet the climax overwhelms me.   In the midst of my orgasm, I think I can hear Kyle’s own release through my phone.

“Fuck YES, Shit, Fuck YES… YES… YYYYEEEESSSS…” I hear from my phone as Kyle, obviously masturbating himself, shoots his load who knows where.

For several minutes, there is only the sound of heavy breathing coming from me and my phone.  After our breathing and our heartrates return to normal, I hear Kyle.

“Meg, that was wonderful and I certainly needed that, but couldn’t it of waited?”

“No!” I reply emphatically.  “I wanted you to hear your girlfriend’s first orgasm with a butt-plug in her ass.”

“A BUTT-PLUG?” Kyle asks, with obvious enthusiasm.  “What prompted that?  What’s going on with you Meg?”

“I want you to fuck me in the ass Kyle.  You hear me, I want you fuck your girlfriend in the ass.”

“Are you sure babe?  You’ve been fighting me about this for what seems like forever.”

“After tonight, yes I’m sure.  I want to feel your cock in my ass!”

“Well, I think I can manage that.  How about I pick you up from work tomorrow.  We can have a nice dinner and go back to your place afterwards.”

“How about you get your ass over here tonight?  Give me a chance to show you my new toy collection.”

With a palatable sigh in his voice, Kyle said “Meagan, you don’t have to ask me twice!”

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Summer Interns
by "Love is like war: Easy to begin bu

That Saturday Paul arrived at Darina’s apartment in the Inwood section of Manhattan. First, they met at a Chinese restaurant to pick up the food.

After they ate in the dining room, they sat on the sofa in the living room. Darina was the one to initiate some romantic action. She cuddled up next to him and they started a make-out session. Paul was not that surprised about it; he expected it in fact because she had invited him to be alone with her. He restrained himself somewhat in that he did not attempt to touch her on intimate parts of her body.

He did fantasize about what kind of panties she was wearing under her skirt. Maybe she's not wearing them at all. He decided, based on what he knew about Darina, that she wouldn’t do that.

After a few minutes, she said, “I’ve got something to show you. It’s right here.” She reached into a drawer of a side table and took out her pink vibrator.

“Do you know what this is?”

“I’m not really sure.”

Paul was pretty sure he did know, but he decided to be cautious and not insult her in the unlikely case he was wrong.

She giggled, “Silly, it’s a vibrator. You know what those are, right?”

“Of course.” He had never seen one except those that were sometimes displayed in store windows. Those didn’t look anything like this one.

She leaned into him and said softly, “I’m going to show you how it works, right here, with myself as the subject.” He was so amazed and delighted that be couldn't think of an answer. She continued, “After I get myself off with this, I’ll do something to get you off too.”

“Really? Like what?”

“It will be a surprise. You’ll find out.”

Darina went through her usual vibrator routine as he watched. First, she lifted her skirt and took off her panties. As she spread herself, Paul realized that he had never seen a woman's genitals except in magazines. He remembered masturbating frequently while looking at the usual Playboy and Penthouse magazines. He was impressed by her thick brown bush. Yet he stayed in place and made no attempt to touch her down there.

Darina said, “There is a sort of, ah, set of procedures I usually follow that I know will work.” She lifted her blouse and undid her bra. “I often play with my nipples because that feels good too.” Out of caution she rarely did that at the office. Then she remembered Paul playing with Judy's exposed breasts in the supply room.

Paul of course already had a big erection from looking at her body. She said, “Heres how it's done.” She rubbed the vibrator along the outside of her vulva. Then, she used the two prongs as needed, the big one for her vagina and the smaller on her clitoris.

Unlike the office restroom, she made no attempt to lower her voice. She moaned and grunted with pleasure as much as she wanted. This thing is great; I’m going to climax in less than ten minutes. When her orgasm arrived, she didn't say anything particularly original; she merely chanted, “Oh my God, oh my God, I'm coming.”

Just after it happened, she looked down to see if she had squirted on her parents' couch. She hadn’t, which was a relief. Then she enjoyed the afterglow by stroking herself with her hand. She remembered Judy's exposed breasts and she played a bit with her own nipples.

Paul hoped hed be invited to join in the breast and genital rubbing, but he kept his patience. She said she’d do something for me; I just have to wait for it.

After Darina had caught her breath, she was very blunt, “Have you ever had a blowjob?”

“Oh yeah, of course I have.” He didn't mention Judy, which didn’t surprise her.

Actually, Paul was hoping he’d be allowed to penetrate her well-lubricated pussy. He didn’t know if Darina was a virgin or not, but he knew about his own lack of experience. Getting his cherry busted with this pretty girl tonight would be ideal. He had masturbated thinking about her at times; sometimes he imagined fucking her on the floor of the supply room.

Then he thought, Well, maybe we'll do it later on or maybe on some other night. In any case, he figured that an actual fuck with her was practically guaranteed, eventually.

Darina was very direct. She said, “Stand up, right in front of me.” When he was in position she undid his pants. Unlike the session with Judy, she lowered his trousers and underwear; his erect cock jutted out.

“Give me a second.” She used Judy’s ploy of freshening her lipstick. In a moment her mouth was bright red.

Okay, now what do I do? Fortunately, she had seen Judy's technique from start to finish, so she copied that. She was sitting while he was standing. She held his hips and pulled him forward. I wonder what it tastes like? Well, there’s only one way to find out. Like Judy had done, she started by kissing and sucking on the tip of his cock. A small bit of fluid came out which she licked up. Pre-cum; this guy is ready to go, so it shouldn't take too long.

She moved on to licking and kissing the shaft. She put her lips around it to get some lipstick on it. Now it was Paul's turn to moan and groan. He held her hair and repeatedly said her name.

Then it was time to hold the base and suck on the outer half of the shaft. The taste seemed okay; Paul had taken a shower that afternoon. But what impressed Darina was the sexual power she was exerting over him. He was completely in the moment as her mouth worked on his penis. He reached down to touch her bared breasts and he managed to massage her nipples.

Darina could feel the pressure building up inside his cock. This isn’t going to take long. She reached out to cup his balls, and then she started to massage his buttocks.

He became more rhythmic in his forward thrusts, and louder in the noises he was making. She didn't mind the brevity of the act; the length of time for the sucking was more than adequate. She briefly wondered what it would be like if he went down on her; she had never experienced that with a man. Should I have him do that to me when the present act is over?

She could feel his cock stiffen even more as he rocked back and forth. Then she wondered what she would do when he came. Taking his entire load and trying to swallow it seemed daunting. She considered pulling him out at the last moment and aim him so that he shot went, well, where? If it was aimed over her shoulder then surely a lot would land on the couch, which would probably be difficult to clean properly.

She wished she had asked for a handkerchief at the beginning, and then he could ejaculate into that. She came up with a compromise. At the last moment, she would pull him out and stroke him with her hand. She would try to aim it so that most was launched into her open mouth. That seemed better than gaging on the entire load as it poured into her throat.

It worked pretty well that way. As he cried out in pleasure, their aim was pretty good. Some of it got onto parts of her face, but that wasn’t too bad. She contemplated the taste of the stuff actually in her mouth. It seemed a bit salty but bland; she thought of New England-style clam chowder. She never considered using her mouth, as Judy had done, to remove the remaining cum from his cock and also to show additional affection.

He collapsed so that he was leaning over the back of the sofa. Darina kept her wits and made a simple request, “I could use a handkerchief now if you've got one.

She used it to clean her face. She was a bit perturbed that some had gotten on her but, thankfully, none on the sofa. This couch is rather expensive.

They both seemed at a loss as to what to do next. Paul stood there, stunned perhaps, until he pulled his pants up and sat down. He could see that Darina wasn’t even looking at him. She felt disappointed; this all had all been so abrupt with little romantic build-up. It was just a series of physical acts.

He tried; he put an arm around her shoulders. He hoped that she might kiss him, but she made no attempt to do that or even to nuzzle him. She looked straight ahead at the opposite wall.

Darina, for her part, having completed the session, was now thinking of a way to get him out. He obviously is fond of Judy; maybe he is even in love with her. She couldn’t figure out what was so appealing about Judy’s swelling behind and frizzy hair. The fact that she was also smart and funny didn't figure in the other woman's calculations. She thought that she herself possessed those qualities.

She needed time to think; she said, “I’m going to the kitchen for some seltzer.” She didn’t offer any to him.

Once in there, she assessed her situation. He obviously likes having two chicks at once; maybe there are even more I don’t know about. She had to work in the office, but the idea of him being around during her sophomore year at City College seemed intolerable.

She came back with the best excuse she could think of. She indicated her belly and said, “I’m not feeling very well. I don't think that Chinese food agrees with me.”

“I’m really sorry to hear that.” What am I supposed to do about it? He had been fantasizing about copulating with her on the couch after that well-executed blowjob. She's not wearing panties now and her bra is open; she’s already primed to go.

Instead, he heard, “Maybe it would be best if you go. I need to lie down for a while.” I feel like I just got here; lie down with me. But he knew he was being dismissed. In a few minutes, he was catching the A train at 207th Street.

As per Duke Ellington, the A train was the fastest way to Sugar Hill in Harlem. But Paul was going to change there for the D up to The Bronx.

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entry 09
by eyeore's twin


So of course when I need to be getting ready for my move I either got residual weakness from the Covid or a Fibro Flare up any way I was in bed yesterday until church our church meets at night because we share the building with another church church was awesome like usual it was nice seeing everyone again after being gone for so long. My Pastor told me she's so proud of me for dealing with everything happening at once and my attitude towards it I've been up since 3 which is why I don't like taking my meds before 11 and I taking my day meds around 11 which Bren doesn't get. I have a lot I have to do in the next few days I can't afford to get sick or to go manic on the other side of it well I'm going to try and take a nap now

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Imagine my future
by valencia
When I look into the future like 5,10,15 years from now I imagine it with Ryan. It is so weird that is how I know I am over Eman. Like when I used to imagine the future with Eman I was happy with it but in the four years that I been away from Eman I have really evolved and changed. Back then I did not really care about politics. I was just a liberal that voted. Did not care to change things and was content with the way things were and just stayed out of it. I was ambitious and cared about having a career and getting wealthy. Now I don't care about any of that stuff. I care about politics more than ever but in the lefty side, I care about traveling and creating relationships and bonding experiences but most of all Ryan challenges me in ways I have never been challenge before intellectually and he makes me want to be a better person. I no longer care for capitalism and getting wealthy, I care about humans and suffering and their pain. I would love to run for office someday even if it's just local. But most of all when I imagine my future it is with Ryan by myside. He has saved me from myself more times I can admit. He helped me get over Eman. It is weird how people evolve with time in such a short amount of time I have definitely change for the good though. I am currently in therapy trying to navigate all these new changes and I really want to be happy because I deserve it. I have so much of the past that I need to work through but I know with Ryan by my side I can get through everything. I just thought I would write out all this because it is so weird how humans evolve and change and depending on the surroundings their needs change. Sometimes for the better. I will always be grateful for Bernie Sanders he has changed my life but most of all because of him i met Ryan. How weird a politician would bring me my person.
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eventfull week...
by The Avon Lady

so my mom had her first supper low blood sugar ever.. i heard her hollaring for me, and found her out of her chair nose in her needle box, on her side. wish i had taken a picture.  ended up calling 911... ems took her sugar 13!!! she has never been that low ever! so she was taken by ambulance to the hospital where they found out she had fluid in chest cavity and double up on meds.. so all in all a blessing in disguse she got home yesterday... still on for her heart stint on the 4th tho...  My avon customers know my moms having a procedure and to order online if possible. 


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entry 08
by eyeore's twin


So I met with my mentor this morning her and I are doing a mentor\mentee bible study but its really cool each week is a scripture and then there are 6 journal prompts and I was telling her how i'm at peace with everything that happened including going back to the group home and I wish that Bren would get that all that went down i'm at peace with and that i was never angry with her and that none of this is her fault so she needs to not blame herself the other night my blood sugar was dropping but wasn't low yet and i tried to go get a protein bar and I kept falling down it was several times between my bedroom and the kitchen well Bren told the casemanager in charge of the group home I was going to tell her when I saw her anyway well they have a plan for when I need food but can't get it because i'm dizzy they'll have a emergency kit for me and that the other residences will know to bring that to me Brens room will be next to mine and she is really good at dealing with my lows i now had to push my school start date back again because I had covid the week I was supposed to start my stepdad still isn't happy with me going to a Christian College and I know he thinks that because of my mental impairments that I don't know how to pick a school i let him and my mom pick where I went to college after highschool and that was a disaster and I eventually had to drop out well happy saturday everyone

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entry 08
by eyeore's twin

6 Days

So 6 days until i move bren came by for 15 minutes to pick up some of her stuff so that i don't have to pack up her stuff my case manager is bringing me boxes on monday and is going to help me pack on tuesday but i might need him to take me to the storage place so i can rent a storage unit and to walmart so i can get bedding because i don't still have the bedding i still had last time i was there i am slowly getting then ready

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I forgot how much I hate looking for a new job. I hate interviewing. I hate even more that I have to do it over Zoom. I guess I can wear comfy pants while having the interview. That's a bonus. But the stress gives me hives. Literally. Probably the stress is a combination of the nonsense that is happening at my current employment and my body is just freaking out over it. That's not really a surprise. I'm less stressed about the interview process than the current status of my job. I actually dread going to work everyday. My alarm goes off and I want to just crawl deeper into bed than I already am. I just can't bring myself to enjoy it right now. 


That said, I have an interview tomorrow morning for a job that will involve me working from home. Hopefully I get it. Maybe I'll hate it. Who knows. Wish me luck. I have a headache right now. Blah.

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Ex Eman
by valencia
My ex Eman who I have written about here many times has Colon Cancer. I am like stunned and shock. He reached out to me like in October but I barely saw the message via fb messenger. And we talked yesterday he wants to meet up and make amends and apologize for the way he treated me. I appreciate it as it is now easier for me because I have zero feelings for him. But I have to tell Ryan. Eman does know I am in a relationship, I told him I can offer him friendship that is the best I can do. Our relationship was very weird and kind of one sided. I think he wants closure which is fine because we both deserve it. But I do feel bad that he has nobody to take care of him and he still has to work. I mean it is the human in me. Honestly I don't know wtf to do.
The weird thing is I had a dream about him a couple of weeks ago where he was lying next to me and he died. Fuck my life. I do not want to speak this into existence but he did confess to me today that he could end up like Chadwick Boseman. I mean I never want to wish death on anyone. Life as we are grownups can be so damn complicated. Ughhh!
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entry 06
by eyeore's twin

7 days

so 7 days until I move into the group home theres so much to do but with negative temperatures it's a little hard but i did spend time with my case manager today and he is going to take me to my group home appointments on my move day bren is out of the hospital i saw my dr today he said that it looks like i recovered well from the covid my blood sugars are all over the place and he wanted to change to a newer more potent insulin but my insurance wouldn't cover it so now i'm on the highest dose of that brand of insulin that my dr has ever seen i see my dr again in a couple of weeks hopefully we'll figure some thing out by then

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Theme 437
by Theme Of The Week
theme 437 option 1

Submitted by Greta Garbage.

What are you looking forward to the most when we are finally safe enough to go back to our lives? What will you miss about lockdown?

theme 437 option 2

Submitted by Ashalicious.

Who would you most like, and least like, to be stuck in an elevator with?

theme 437 option 3

Submitted by TOTW

What would constitute a "perfect" day for you?

» Submit a theme idea.
» Submit your entry to the TOTW circle.
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entry 04
by eyeore's twin


so bren and i found an apartment got everything done at the meantime i got super sick and bren decides that she doesn't want to move in that afternoon my phone was dead and i had gotten so sick that i couldnt take care of roxy and brens cause manager showed up to check on me so that was a disaster and that night i ended up in the ER with Covid that was a disaster and any way my case manager took roxy back to the pound but it was for her best and yesterday i finally got the clear from the state to get off quartentine and it looks like i'm going back into the group home because even with hud housing i can't afford anything in town without her but truthfully there are some things that going back to the group home might help with bren is in the psych unit again well i'm going to go back to bed cause i have a housing inspection tuesday and i need to clean the house for then

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On becoming human again
by Malkavian Kitten

I didn't realize just how much of myself I had set aside to make my relationship work.  And even looking back on it, I'd do it over again to keep him in my life and stay in the relationship longer.  I lost a lot of my self, but it wasn't healthy stuff in and of itself, anyway.  

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by The Avon Lady

so i finally got a call back from the unemployment office, they had recieved my reupp for unemployment but their still processing it, and i have a follow up call for the 26th of feb at7:30am to get an update..... seriosuly what am i supposed to do? my bills are all fucked up now,  my mom and my bf are covering everything for me i feel like shit. my mom has to have a special hear cath procedure on the 4th of march for her 100% blockage... I WANT A FREAKING JOB.  Avon helps it does... but when car payment, student loans,  cancer insurance... phone bill... im just so over this covid thing. i dont hear back from my applications... im jsut over this stuff... 


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We Are Alive...
by I Fear Who I Am Beco

I have been away...Doing some real life soul searching. And frankly I am going back and forth from anger to despair and in between I found hope. It is hard to see, its a streak of light through a thick blackness, but it is there. And it is alive and well regardless of how I feel. We all go by feelings. If we feel terrible, its easier to speak out of anguish and desperation rather than optimism, and hope of the future. First of all, I have made many many many mistakes in my lifetime, and I am the first in line to admit this. But to those of you who have tried to bully and intimidate me? Shame on you.  I have never tried to do anything on here except help people, by telling them that I believe them, they arent nuts, and there is hope!!! Yes I failed in so many ways, but the thing is, most of my mistakes are because of blood and brain, njuries, yep I said that. I have zero malicious intent towards anyone on here, and God knows that, and my soul does know it as well too. I am surprised that I have been able to be as intact and levelheaded as I have been, considering. And if you want loyalty and respect, you have to be loyal and respectful. If you want people to tell you the truth, you need to be truthful, yourself. If you want absolute truth, you must have clean hands and truthful lips, without deciet. I have made transgressions, and repented with bitter tears before God.  The wrong kind of fear of God is afraid that God will hurt us; the right kind is afraid that we will hurt God. And shame on those who present God as a sledgehammer to crush the already broken. Its a shame. Deep crisis. In need of the REAL God's deliverance. Great stress, great pressure. Pressing out the bad oil. Squeezing out the bad from the bones. Those who have ears to hear.......Make the TREE GOOD, and there will be good fruit. We need to not spend so much time on regretting the past, ( bad fruit ) A GOOD TREE CANNOT PRODUCE BAD FRUIT. That doesnt mean we are throwaways because we have some bad fruit. We just need pruining, not destruction. Stop scaring the little leaves. We are important too. A HYPOCRITE IS NOT SOMEONE WHO HAS A STANDARD AND FAILS TO MEET IT, LIKE ME. A hypocrite is a play ACTOR, who puts huge burdens and expectations on others, and would never in a million aeons lift a little finger to do what they are telling others to do. That is not me. I am trying with all my heart to do the right things, and their decaying, moth eaten rottenness is not going to stop me from doing what it is right. It is about time, that I do. “I have no dependence but God; I trust him alone. Should he even destroy my life by this affliction, yet will I hope that when he has tried me, I shall come forth as gold. '''  Also? The friends of Job are everywhere.  HUGGLES. <3

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Life lately
by valencia
So life has been better this year already. I am so in love with Ryan. He treats me fucking amazing. He is the best. Our relationship is so pure and perfect. He accepts me for all my flaws. I started therapy and it has been good for my soul. I love to improve myself. I always feel like a person can always improve one's self. I been getting involved with mutual aid projects in my city and I am loving it. I recently joined DSA and have met so many cool people that are heavily involved in politics and the local community. It is a amazing. All of them acknowledge their privilege and I love that about this community.

I have outgrown so many people that were really negative in my life and have realize that not everyone grows with you however sad that is. I am not perfect for sure but I am the type of person where I have to grow and for the past five years I have had so many growing pains in different ways. Many people stay stagnant because they are scared of growing. It is sad really. We have to evolve as human beings if not we stay stuck. Some people will resort to immature levels but we must not step down to their level. My therapist is amazing she told me I should be more kind to myself and I must admit I need to be. People will try to drag you down sadly but we must not let them. Others have issues within themselves they are projecting on to you.

Oh did I tell you my bf is fucking amazing. Lol I am really just rambling. Oh yeah I got on the waiting list for COVID-19 vaccine. Can't wait to get it.

That is it for now!
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Formulate a crazy sexy experience
by "Love is like war: Easy to begin bu

Some time ago I finally made up my mind to order a sex toy from acmejoy, thank acmejoy for the discount.

The package arrived today. My love and I went through a night of sex. I was a little tired because it was very late. He was very tired at the beginning. He had to work at 7 o'clock this morning, but he did not complain, so I am not satisfied with it.

I have to work tonight, and I have to work tomorrow night. I don't like working for 7 days in a row. When I reviewed how I worked through school, it was actually a few weeks of work between unpaid clinical work and my part-time job above the minimum wage. There was no rest time, almost no money... How did I do it? Even do this? ! I think it shows that I have done what needs to be done to make myself understand what I want/need.

Still, this is crazy.

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Do you know what's great? No? I'll tell you! It's great when you learn that you are being demoted not from the manager or owner of the place you work, but by the slight change of job title in the schedule posted publicy in the staff room. Quite possibly the most unprofessional action I have ever seen. When I asked about it (originally thinking it was a typo/computer error) Craig hummed and hawed about it before saying in a timid voice we would talk about it. Well, Craig, it's been over a week. Where is this "talk" we're supposed to have?


And somehow they expect me to fill out this survey about things I'm proud of and things I want to learn or work on. How am I supposed to fill that out when all I can think is that they've just destroyed any respect I have for them? And what really makes me mad is that this other assistant manager I work with is getting manager training despite the fact that he commits time theft regularly. Like WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. 


So I'm job hunting now. And I have half a mind to not give them two weeks notice the moment I find a new job. And when they ask me why I am leaving, I'm going to tear a strip off them both. The lack of respect is just fucking astounding. I hate how Craig is incapable of properly disciplining his staff. I hate how Jalpa plays favourites and gives her pharmacy staff raises that are fabulous while the rest of us get bullshit for a raise. I hate that Jalpa treats anyone not in the pharmacy part like shit. I hate how Craig lets her walk all over him and everyone else. I hate that they both reward bad behaviour while the good employees are treated like shit.


I've never been so mad in my life. I cannot. I just....blah. Fuck them. Once I get a new job, they'll be lucky I even give them two weeks notice. Assholes. They get the respect they give. 

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Recent Forum Reply
Forum Thread: OMIGOSH!
Forum: General Discussion
by DerelictHeart

Because I am up at 3a....






So, what are you up to? Today I get this and this x2 Can't wait. :)

I think I will try and get some sleep. :)



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Theme of the Week
by DerelictHeart

If you could live forever, would you? Why or why not?

This question, is a sort of Damocles sword.. one one hand you have a chance to live to see people and situations and landscapes change... but on the other, you will outlive your friends/family etc etc.... and that isn't good... so I'm going with not living forever. I will just live my life the way it is. Nice and relatively uneventful.



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Theme 436
by Theme Of The Week
theme 436 Option 1

Submitted by LittleUn.

What are your favourite and least favourites qualities about your partner? What are their favourite and least favourite qualities about you?

theme 436 Option 2

Submitted by ೋMindy☆.

If you could live forever, would you? Why or why not?

theme 436 Option 3

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If you knew that in one year you would suddenly die, would you change anything about the way you live now?

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by DerelictHeart

I figured out how to type comfortably in the expanded view. No rocket science here. So, yesterdays last entry was rather heavy, mostly bc I was in a crummy Eeyore mood.. you know? Like 'Oh woe is me...' and all that happy horseshit.

Now all I'm waiting on is pin and that's all... then I am giving Bees her share, and she is keeping my share bc I don't have a wallet/purse. Tomorrow, I get my 3DS XL and two eShop cards. I want to get Tomodachi Life, and Ultra Sun/Ultra Moon.

I had lentil soup and baguette for supper. Very very delish! 

Well, what are y'all doing these days? :)


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by DerelictHeart

February is upon us. Soon, it will be Julz's birthday. (on the 25th) and that day... I call it Galentines Day, bc I am single and so are my two besties. The last guy I dated broke my heart, but I still have feelings for him... how fucked up is that?? Bees and Julz have had their fair share of utter idiots. I want to go back to social to see if Justin (my beau) is still dating his skanky gf. If not, then, yeah... I'll fb him. Call it a fatal attraction. Call it stupid. But I still love the guy. Is this weird or what???

I wish I could go back in time, speaking of love.... to marry Greg, to give the middle finger.. hell a double salute to Eleanor my evil foster mum. And yeah, get settled down and just make a family with him... but I ended up in college... which like hs, I failed miserably... mostly bc I had the care of my baby nephew (foster sister Lorie, mother of the year 1992) foisted onto my already full workload. I had no other choice. Both Lorie and her mother of all mothers Eleanor were raging alkies... and there was NO FUCKING WAY I would let those two with Mathew. :( I miss Mathew.. esp with the damn COVID floating around. I wanna think he is ok, but I think he is homeless now... and young people don't last long homeless... I should know, bc I was homeless for a spell.

I'm done.


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I love Buddy. :) He and Elvis and Ricky Nelson. All 50's stars, all dead? But still really good. As for the charger, my friend Lisa needs a new cord. My sister had this awesome idea... eat soup for dinner for a week! I am curious as to what will happen to our bodies with this change, will we lose weight?? Idk but I'm game. :) 

Hopefully the COVID-19 vaccine comes soon. I want to start walking with Bees and Julz and I want to go back to the library... the walk to and from there is good exercise. I usually will go after lunch for a few hours, then Bees would either meet me there or half-ways there... and we'd walk all the way back home.. stupid COVID.

When I get the vaccine, lets just say this bird will escape their cage and... go crazy? Probably. I know that I will want to do everything and everything at the same time... haa... lol



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by DerelictHeart

If you HAD to sleep with one of your exes again, which would it be and why?

I would definitely sleep with Greg Ryder. I miss him like crazy. He was the only man who made me feel like a woman and not a girl. 

He looked like Billy Corrigan of the Smashing Pumpkins in the 90's.. with hair? Like in the video for "Today".. 



Yepp. I'd definitely do him again. He wanted marry me and he bought me a ring but stupid Eleanor was not having it. Right now, she is residing in a special section of hell for alcoholic crazies.



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by DerelictHeart




Hey. My name is Samantha Josephine, aka Derelict Heart, aka Sammy. I live in Canada and yes, it is very very cold, -6c today. I have a cute golden retriever Oliver, and a Russian blue George.




I'm not a fan of Tom Brady. I cannot wait for next week, bc of Superbowl. We are having a game day party, and we are going to see the Chiefs ram the Buccaneers into next year.

I love meeting new people so please feel free to add me or comment... I always comment back! :3


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