A lot to say with nothing to say

07/02/2025

I'm in one of those moods where I want to write a lot, but there's nothing really to say. So the only option is to lean heavily into the stream of consciousness, and sort of see what happens. Sometimes that means just talking about recent updates in my life, and at work, but it's too mundane, and I crave something a little more interesting. Granted, interesting things are happening at work, and maybe in several years I'll come back and read this and kick myself for not elaborating (because I certainly won't remember what those interesting events are), but this is the decision I'm making for now, because I don't want to dwell on work things for the purpose of this entry.

But on the other hand, what else is there to dwell on? My life is a series of routines, and making sure everyone is alive, fed, and happy. Which is nice, I'm not lamenting this in any way, but it doesn't make for the most interesting thing to read. Not that I'm on a website like Bloop Diary for the purpose of finding an audience (no offense to those who are keeping this website on life support in Steve's garage somewhere), but maybe there's an underlying desire for this to be interesting to read for some voyeur hiking through obscure corners of the internet, exploring through my virtual childhood neighborhood.

I see that Bloop mostly consist of people who have been recording their lives here for the better part of 20 years now. Social media doesn't give us the same feeling of ownership over our "corner of the internet". It seems more like a rented space with corporate branding all over it. Old blog sites, however, seem to be a place where you can plant your flag, and invite people into your own space. That's not something you can do with Facebook, where everything looks identical from one another.

Not that my diary here has anything resembling a personality. I think it's just a color and some default text these days. Long gone are the days of layout diaries using rudimentary HTML and CSS to custom design some of the most rock and roll layouts you've ever seen, complete with quotes, graphics hosted on Photobucket, and music from the early 2000s.

Maybe I'm just feeling nostalgic. I don't like to feel nostalgic. It's usually more sad than comfortable for me.