A constant thought that has been running through my mind lately is where I am going to end up. Where am I going to be in 5 year, even 10 years? I mean I have a general idea of what I am going to do, but where will I be? Am I going to still be in here, will I have to move away from my parents and friends? This sort of thing I'm sure is something a lot of people think about. Anyway, another thing is that I have not gone out and partied at all recently. I have not got the chance to get completly drunk off my ass and have a good time. I'm thinking I need to change that very soon. Lol
So onto my main point of this entry;love. This confusing and utterly complex emotion has been messing with me more then ever in my life this year. And like many know, love takes many forms, and it is this complexity that makes my head hurt at night. I am having trouble figuring out which type of love is the real deal. I hear stories about how people are "truely madly deeply" in love. I hate to sound like an ass or a horrible ex to anyone out there, but it is true. I have people in my life that yes I could not live without, but is that love love!? Or is it just a form of it? I have throughout my life always been looking for something or someone more. I am never content with what I have, that push and drive of mine has been my downfall, and this I know..trust me. So, I guess this is a an impossible thing for anyone to answer, if there is anything you can give to help me out please do!