|i don't understand why it's so hard for me to let go of my husband's best friend. i'm not in love with this guy, but there's so much chemistry between us that whenever i'm around him, there's constant white noise in my head. there have been so many times where i just wanted to kiss this guy just so i knew if this is straight up lust or if there could be something more there. he's tried more than once to be with me before my husband and i were dating, and i never gave him the chance. |
i want to know so bad but i won't put my marriage at risk. i know the consequences that come with cheating and i am not prepared throwing everything away for lust. i just wish the attraction would disappear.