I am admitting that I have no idea how to rest in God. I know how to fight, and war, but without the rest its impossible to keep it up. I have dealt with the symptoms of what they call Lyme and Morgellons and Neurotoxcicity, and Mast cell and pretty much ALL lead back to the same thing. Toxin overload. Period. And that makes you feel so many horrible things, and if you dont have positive understanding compassionate family or friends to help you, doing it alone is IMPOSSIBLE. And yet here I am doing it alone. I have been blocked and obstructed at every turn by the enemy, physically, financially, emotionally, dont even get me started on that one. You feel panicked and scared, and like your insides are being ripped out and the lines begin to blur between sanity and insanity, and THATS when the kicker happens and you realize you have been lied to all your life, both intentionally and unintentionally, and what THIS WORLD calls sanity, is just a limitation put on humans so we dont BREAK OUT OF THE MOLD ( and I mean that quite literally. clay is what we are on the inside, believe me ) In other words this worlds labels and ' right and wrong ' are LIES. And when that clay starts to move on the inside of you, and you feel your own bones break and move and be put back in places they weren't before, and then this worm like flesh colored substance takes over and rebuilds you on the inside. NO I WAS MEANT TO BE BUILT AND REBUILT BY GOD ALONE. THIS WORLD IS A LIE. It is an abomination, and who made it that way? Greed. Power. More more more me me me, gimme gimme gimme, thats who. THEY SAY CONSUME AND OBEY, REBELLION WILL NOT BE TOLERATED. Oh really? Okay. We'll see. I have so much more to say but I cant right now. Also, the emotional thing...They never did get just how much their words hurt. And w hen you speak over someone, it creates MATTER that then connects to the persons DNA. Think before you speak. SERIOUSLY. Please. I beg of you. Peace. <3
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