it's not suicide if I just beat myself up... Right?

01/04/2009

I am not sure if I should post this, but it's better then feeling like crap...
Cass is mad at me...

It started with Cass and me talking about stuff. We got to talking about harvey, she said something mean but funny. Well anyways Jeff (Harvey's Brother) calls me in the morning, that how he wakes me up everyday. We talk about stuff too and somehow we talk about some of the same things Cass and I had talked about harvey. so without thinking I tell him some of the things we said and end up mentioning Cass's Comment. His reaction is "that's messed up", and then we keep talking about stuff, mostly maple story. it's not until like 3 hours later that I learned that he was kind of pissed at what she said. He runs it by his wife and the wife calls Cass, and now Cass is mad! She makes it seem like i just call jeff and rated her out. umm no, she know far too well I'd never do that. It was just me talking and saying things without thinking. Maybe if we were not talking as soon as i woke, maybe I would have had better judgement. but I still have no excuse. the thing is they don't seem to be making a big deal about it so I thought cass would calm down.... but no, she is mad, won't listen to my words, and when did, she mixed them up... Jeff understands the whole thing, but he don't care much about how Cass feels so he won't talk to her and explain.... ( they don't get along all the time...) He just tells me to leave it alone and it will be ok.... But I know Cass... she will most likely never let me live it down, she put it in my face no matter what the truth is. oh well. I screwed up! I didn't mean to make any one mad but I did, so I will just hope she will call me because she won't answer the phone. I said too many sorrys already so she knows that I feel bad about it. I don't like seeing her sad or mad, which makes it worse now because it's my fault. I just hope she is good health wise and such.

I am so caught up in her happiness that I forgot ask if anyone had a good holiday season? I got a Toaster oven for Christmas so now i can make even better sandwiches than I already do... but I need to hope Cass doesn't kill me because she was my no.1 fan.