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It's been a long time!
by ~Just the 3 of Us~

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I am so overwhelmed


I don't know where to start to dig myself out

I am drowning in so many areas of my life that it is really beginning to wear me down. I am so tired lately. I can't get myself up out of bed in the morning. I'm falling asleep on the couch again at night. If I take a nap on the weekend, it's not a 30-60 minute refresher, it's a 3 hour ordeal where I'm completely unproductive! :( J has been helping me where he can but I just don't feel comfortable giving him a huge list of things that need to be done. Plus, he's only been here for 5.5 weeks so he's still learning how things are laid out in my house and where things go, how I do the laundry, etc. etc. I'm getting to the point where I feel like I need to admit myself and be sedated for a week and THEN go back to my life. But, I know that is not possible so I'm muddling through as best I can while still trying to be patient with Henry and J (which in my opinion I have not been). :(

Additionally, (and this is TMI so if you choose to, you may stop reading now), I had the Mirena IUD implanted on 9/24/12. I've been wanting to do this for awhile to try and control the horrible periods I've had since Henry was born. Due to my age and the fact that I smoke, I cannot go on the birth control pill. Therefore, my only option was the IUD or having a uterine oblation. I am not ready for the oblation because I still want another child and am unwilling to close that door just yet. So, the IUD's been in since 9/24. This was done right in the middle of my cycle. On 9/27, I started bleeding. It is nowhere near as heavy as a "normal" period but it's slighly annoying nonetheless. I am still bleeding. *sigh* I realize that this may go on for many weeks while my body adjust to the hormones, etc. but I really just wish it would end already. It is not interfering with intercourse but it makes intimacy less spontaneous as I have a strong urge to shower and flush first. lol I don't know if this change in hormone levels could be causing my tiredness and irritability but it is certainly a possiblity.

So, more for myself than for anyone else, I am going to make a list of things that I seriously need to accomplish over the next few months (some are much more time sensitive than others obviously):

Complete the final take home exam in Macroeconomics - Due 10/16/12 at 8am
Get caught up on all readings/journal for Comp II (English)
Get ahead in Comp II since the class ends 12/13 and graduation is 12/15 in order to help the teacher make sure my grades are submitted in time
Work on Synthesis paper - rough draft due 10/18, final draft due 10/25
Register for 1st semester of Grad School - Registration opens 11/12/12
Pay the balance of tuition and graduation fee - past due!!!!
Return rental books - Macro book due in 2 weeks, Comp II books due at the end of December

Update my Linked In account with more detail regarding work experience and college classes taken
Take business professional picture and upload to Linked In account
Create a kick-ass cover letter
Submit resume and cover letter for advertised accounting positions
Submit resume and cover letter to local CPA firms
Get into Robert Half and take the Junior Accounting exam and MS Office exams
Submit resume and cover letter to local placement agencies

Life in General
Deep clean my house - due ASAP
Schedule haircut/color for next weekend
Reorganize the living room to accommodate the treadmill purchased in March
Pay and schedule shipping of above reference treadmill
Complete Wisconsin Application for Divorce
File divorce application - due 12/31/12
Decorate for Halloween
Create christmas gift list
Christmas Shopping
Buy Kyocera Hydro smart phone
Move cell service to Boost under J's plan

Scentsy Business
Follow-up on leads - past due!!!!
Get Holiday brochures
Create samples from September and October scent of the months
Book some home parties!!!!
Book some basket parties!!!!
Put brochures, business cards and samples in my car to give out when people respond to the ad on my car!

I'm sure there is so much more I am forgetting! :( But, that is most of it...and if you've made it this far, you can see why I feel so damn overwhelmed. You can also see why I'm so damn tired! Gah!!!!


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nod, it seems like everyone is dealing with something different but we're all dealing with something that it dragging us down.

I know you are a perfectionist, but somethings may not be as important as you think they are. AND I cant see how that TMI stuff wouldnt have something to do with you being warn down.

*hug* right back at you

[A RedSox Fan|0 likes] [|reply]

I see alot of those things that you could delegate or simply ask kindly. C'mon honey you are not alone. I'm sure J would be more then willing to take a looksee and say "hey I can do this and that" it would probably be a relief to him knowing he was helping while you aren't well

[~Kimberly~|0 likes] [|reply]

I know Kimberly. It's just hard for me to ask for help. And I'm still adjusting to the fact that I am no longer alone. I'll get there.

[~Just the 2 of Us~Star|0 likes] [|reply]


I would gladly help you with anything and everything on your list. I am here to help you and not be a burden to you and H. I love you more then anything. I know I have only been here 5.5 weeks and I am still learning how you like things done..... But if you let me I will help you in anyway that I can. I understand that you are run down and stressed. I just wish I could help you more with everything that stresses you out. *hugs & kisses.*

[sparksStar|0 likes] [|reply]

You are not a burden baby and you help me out a lot as it is. Please just continue to be patient with me. I'll get used to having a life partner again. I love you! *kisses*

[~Just the 2 of Us~Star|0 likes] [|reply]


[~Kimberly~|0 likes] [|reply]

I knew it

[~Kimberly~|0 likes] [|reply]

Judt ask him. If he's living there he should do stuff anyway, and 5 weeks is long enough to work shit out. Maybe it is the hormones making you tired. Who knows?

[mrs mandy mooStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I have had the Mirena for several years now and yes- that is the cause of your tiredness!! I am having mine removed and replaced soon with the one that has no hormones because I am constantly tired- not sure if that is the case, but I dont need the hormones anyway. It will help with your period issues....I havent had one in YEARS!!

Yep...I was here!

[SproutStar|0 likes] [|reply]

see...J is willing to help. LET HIM!!
I'm sure the hormones are affecting you. Mine wreak havoc on me and they aren't even "bad" compared to other people's.
Just take one thing at a time. Maybe set a goal for each day. Today I'm going to do ____ on the school list, ____ on the home list, and ___ on the job list. You can do it!

[*Stealth Bombshell*|0 likes] [|reply]


[Hermione Granger|0 likes] [|reply]

thank you

[FearfulInk|0 likes] [|reply]

you should update lol
RYC: it takes 5 mins to write a poem. it takes hours of great consentration to write about a day of my trip lol

[A RedSox Fan|0 likes] [|reply]

ryc: I added you to my friend's list.

[Mommy♥f4Star|0 likes] [|reply]

ryc: we tried that too and he would just keep spitting it out :/. we tried literally EVERYTHING. we can't hide it in his food because it has this horrible taste and he can sense it :/.

[MindaHeyHey|0 likes] [|reply]

I appreciate the lack of judgment more than you know. This does and at the same time does not feel like what happened with Jane, if that makes any sense.

My question is this, though: is she flirting, do you think? Just based on the examples I gave? I'm so dumb about this stuff!

[derdoppelganger|0 likes] [|reply]

He has been stressed alot and has been snapping at me and our daughter for it but he apologized and hasbeen better.

[Omima|0 likes] [|reply]

thanks. i was here before i just couldn't remember my password lol

[AMH|0 likes] [|reply]

have you been depressed at all as of late? depression can really drain your energy and make you feel like crap. believe me, i know from first hand experience. and as for all the other stuff, i am sorry. i just wanted to let you know you will be ever in my thoughts from now on. we all have problems and issues, but maybe it is those issues themselves that can make us strong. don't give up. someone is always thinking of you.

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