Tonight my brain chemistry is being unkind. I feel low and paranoid and bitter. I could cope with the first two, but I don't like being bitter - I want to be upbeat and optimistic and generally think well of people. I like to wish people the best. I don't like having to suppress feelings of anger and resentment.
It's one thing to feel like people around me are better than me. It's a whole new scary level of crazy to start to dislike them for this.
I shall sleep and hope tomorrow has better mindspace.