Okay, my family and I need serious prayers right now. Early Monday morning, I heard that my cousin Josh drowned after falling into the Chena River in Alaska. Apparently this happened on Sunday but the family heard the next day. So far, as far as i know, no body has been found. I don't even know if the search and rescue people are still searching for a body. The river was high due to ice breaking up and it was flowing fast as well. Needless to say, it has been a horrible shock and loss to my family. To me personally, he was one of my favorite cousins. If i stop to think upon it, I cannot stop crying. So my defense mechanism is kicking in...staying busy, that is. I went to work the morning I found out but it wasn't a good day, mentally. To top it off, I had only 3 hours of sleep (on top of already being exhausted from saturday night and beyond). I got home from work and passed out from exhaustion and grief. I got woken up by a neighbor calling me and telling me to get to the basement. Apparently the tornado sirens had gone off 3 times already at that point. My other neighbors were freaking out because they didn't know where I was until I came downstairs, outside, and to the basement. Monday was NOT a good day for me.
Next Monday (the 27th), my family is holding a memorial service for Josh. Part of me is hoping that he will show up, due to the lack of a body. It seems odd to me to be holding a memorial service when there is no proof of death. Part of me is numb to the core and has not processed a lot of things regarding this issue as well. Due to work, I don't know if I will be able to attend the service, but I hope to be able to go. I will ride down with my sister if I do go. She has to go through my town to get to the location of the service anyway.
Today is the 2nd anniversary of the Joplin Tornado as well. That is not phasing me much, honestly. I do find it ironic, and sad, that the Moore (OK) tornado was on the doorstep of the Joplin one. I have family who live in the area of Moore, OK. They are all okay, thank god. I do not know how well my family could take much more loss. It is the not knowing which is tearing me up inside currently, regarding Josh.
To sum this all up, prayers are much appreciated. It is times like this when a person finds out who their true friends are...and I know who they are very well. Thank you to all of you who are a source of comfort, support, and encouragement in this dark time. You are all appreciated beyond what words can convey.--Robyn
P.S.--I got that one cleaning job, by the way. I have done one job for them so far. I hope more will come of it. |
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