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All you need is Love
by ✌-mel-☮

previous entry: First day of school

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listen to the sound of silence

09/07/2015




Time: 6:32am

State of Being: tired, but annoyingly awake

Song lyric in my head: ten thousand people maybe more. people talking without speaking. people hearing without listening.

current desire: for my school to hire a new teacher so i can actually teach

where am I?: in the livingroom on the couch

what's that noise?: the sound of silence (ironic), wait no. the AC just kicked on now I hear that.



well hello there.

Friday ended week two of school. Life is definitely different without wal-mart. I'm still so thankful I quit. The stress of school-ness is nothing compared to retail hell. I do miss my pharmacy coworkers though. I stopped by and said hi a couple times. The time I stopped by with Ram there, he did nothing by complain complain complain complain about some of our patients. One of them gave us HELL a couple years ago. Called corporate on us multiple times. Called our district manager multiple times. Ended up saying she was never coming back. blablabla So she left. Then I guess she came back complaining about the three other pharmacies she's been to and how horrible they are and had to leave them. ugh. I'm so so so SO happy I don't have to deal with that crap anymore.

However, school is pretty stressful. I have 15 kids in my class, and 10 of them are foundations. (children below grade level. most have some form of autism.) The other 5 are kindergarten and 1st grade. I can't teach anything, because everyone's on a different grade level. I have two kids that cannot read at all. I have a couple that cannot write without assistance (dexterity issues). I have a couple screamers, and a runner. I have a kindergartner who has never been in school a day in her life, and cannot read nor write. She doesn't want to work on anything and always thinks its playtime. And she will have a TANTRUM when we tell her to sit in her chair and work. I'm talking complete toddler wailing and flailing. I can't teach anything. These kids need one-on-one help, and it's so hard to cater to each one of their needs.

This is the first year they mixed a foundations class with a traditional class. The foundations kids are used to another setting and having a classroom to themselves. They are used to breaktime whenever they want and used to working in their own schedule. It's hard to maintain a classroom setting, when they all get up every few minutes to wander. And then it distracts my younger ones that need a stable quiet calm environment.

I know my classroom management is usually more on the lax and lenient side, but I truly have to be firm with these little ones and it kills me. I can tell at home, they are used to fighting their parents until severe consequences. They don't understand that school is different. I had a kid tell me straight to my face "no." when I told him he needs to work. I can't even get to fun things in class, because they take fun and run with it.

The directors told me that they are pushing the board to hire a foundations teacher. They had to get the school enrollment numbers up to a certain point, and now they finally have it. I'm really really hoping. I love those kids. I do. But they cannot thrive in a traditional classroom setting. My younger ones, though, require it.

And for the last couple weeks, I've lived in this constant tired state. lol. I'm completely exhausted at the end of the day. I love the nights and weekends off (three day weekend now woo-hoo!), but it's just so tiring.

Anywho, it's weird. I've been up since before 5. I don't know why I can't sleep. I guess it's a good thing so I can go to bed early tonight. I guess I can't stop thinking about the lesson plans I have to make. I've procrastinated all this weekend.

what else is going on?

Lindsay and Cameron are still going strong in their relationship. It's a been a couple months, and they are already at the I love you phase. I've known Cameron for about *counts* eight years now, and I've never heard him giggle. Now he's giggling when he's with her. Lemme tell you something about Cam. lol. Cam is one of Russ' best friends. He's awesome. An Aquarius like me. We've had deep emotional conversations before. He's a nerd/metal head. Love Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, then headbangs to death metal. lol. So hearing him giggle is borderline hilarious. Lindsay is one of my best friends since high school, and I've never seen her so happy. They are so cute together. But disgustingly cute. Too much PDA (everything short of making out) cute. It's kind of annoying. I love them dearly, but GEEES! get off each other.

Maybe I'm just weird about PDA. I'll hold Russ' hand sometimes in public. Anything more than that just weirds me out. Even kissing him in front of people feels weird. So when I see others, it's even more weird. At home is different. I would cuddle on him forever if I could.

What else?

Oh! Jilly's getting married in a little over a month. (October 17). Russ is actually officiating, and I'm the maid of honor. woot! I have to come up with a bachelorette party. The only other bridesmaid I really know is Lindsay. I guess i have to FB message them. Jilly has group message going on with wedding updates.

Meghan's still Meghan. She's slowly getting her life together. She got a job this week. It's only a temp job, but it's something.

OH! Denise and Jay got married. Eloped in secret with their parents as witnesses. I'm very happy for them, but still sad that I didn't get to attend. I mean come on now, Denise was one my my maids of honor. (I didn't have one and three bridesmaids. I had four maids of honor. (Meghan, Lindz, Jilly, and Denise lol) But they are married now. yay for them.

Denise and Jay live with Lindsay and apparently they are all driving each other crazy. I hear it though Russ who talks to Cameron. lol. Lindz probably doesn't say much to me, because she doesn't want me in the middle. And I appreciate that. I really do. She had a falling out with one of our mutual friends, Ashley, YEARS ago, because they ended up rooming with each other and shit hit the fan. They haven't spoken to each other in probably a decade. I've talked to both of them about still being friends with the other, and they don't mind me keeping up the friendships. I mean I'm closer to Lindsay than Ashley (physically and emotionally lol), but I love my wife to death (Ashley is my wifey. always will be. Even if she's married with a kid and pregnant with another lol) I would hate to see Lindz and Denise have a falling out. We're too old for this shit. But the way things are going, it might look that way.

Not much else to talk about. Still procrastinating those lesson plans.

Oh! I've been doing a lot of writing lately. It's awesome! And I finally decided to read the final Kim Harrison Hollow's series book. I've been putting it off for so long, because I didn't want it to end. I guess everything has to end eventually.

peace!
-mel-
7:10am

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I'm sorry about the classroom. I hope they can hire a foundations teacher sooner. What's the point in even having a teacher if you can't even teach. I feel like with kids like that you should have a smaller classroom.

There is so much going on with your friends - relationships, marriage, and babies! That's great.

I'm not big on PDA either and it makes me feel super awake and when people show PDA.

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