but yet, so pissed off at the same time...Tonight, work was alright. really exciting happened..
I swear to effing GOD, I fucking hate my computer, I'm sick of the mouse pad freezing all the fucking time, and I'm sick of the keyboard always jumping...
anyway...
Tonight, Phil and I were in chat, and his friend "Ryan" started mocking our relationship... comparing me to Phil's ex girlfriend, Laura. Then said he wouldn't "want to get to know someone named after one of the four seasons."
And Phil, defended me O_O
I never, had that before... When I was with Jared, he'd just sit there and say nothing...
but Phil sat there, and defended me, defended our relationship... it seriously, almost brought tears of happiness to my eyes... I never had someone so perfect, in my life...
I can honestly say I've never been so happy in my life.
But, on the other hand...
One of my best friends is going through a rough patch... and you have no idea how hard it is for me to bite my tongue to the fucking asshole making her cry, and causing her so much stress. I'm sick of seeing her upset about him. I honestly... can't take it anymore, I'm about to snap at him. I HATE seeing people I care so much for, suffering. He doesn't fucking realize what the fuck he has. and he throws it away. and the MOMENT she starts to fucking move the hell on, and make herself fucking happy, meets someone new. He sees it, and gets jealous and then wants her back
then a couple months later, it goes back to how it was.
He's full of nothing but empty promises. I'm sick of him not knowing what he wants. He needs to fucking the plate. and accept his responsibilities. Grow some fucking balls. REALIZE WHAT YOU FUCKING HAVE.
I'm fucking sick of your shit. You're lucky I don't fucking live near you....
& to my friend...
I want you to be happy... I want you to have what I have, you always wished this kind of happiness for me, cus you said I deserved it. Well, I've always wanted you to be happy. ardeserve nothing but the best. You deserve to be treated like a queen like I am. I love you with all my heart. Please, make the right choice....
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