Did I ever talk about my best friend, Hannah? We are polar opposites, but we just get each other. I don't know how to explain our friendship, but we are the female version of soul mates.
I mean, were.
Hannah was dating Lester. They have a one year old, Joseph. Lester is a control freak and Hannah is a free spirit, and they just don't mesh well. He would get angry and physical. One night it involved their son and she broke up with him. She didn't really have a place to go so she stayed there until she gathered the money to come stay here with me, four hours away. I gave her Tyler's room, and got her a job. She was set up. Well, I kept bugging her for a week to get here and finally, shit went down (again) and called me and said that she was heading east to my house.
So I hauled ass to get everything ready for her and she finally showed. She got here July 3rd, and for the Fourth of July we took her to a family barbecue. She kept talking about how she felt free and she loved being here. We both got a bit tipsy together, and just had a blast. The next day, she dropped a bomb on me.
She had said that her Mom had called. She owns two dog grooming shops and offered her an under the table job making like, $250 a day. Her Mom's cousin runs the low-income housing in Grand Junction, and just pushed her to the top of the waiting list, and her apartment was waiting for her that day. She was leaving, and after only two days. Didn't bother with the job I got her, didn't apologize for the trouble of kicking my son out of his room, nothing. She was going back. I was a little upset, but I got over it fast. I understood, she needed to make money for her son. I get that. I would never blame a mother for doing the best for her son. Especially a newly single mother.
Well, several hours after she was supposed to be home, I texted her. She hadn't made it there yet. She was driving in a rain storm, and her car fish tails bad in rain puddles. So I waited to hear from her, worried sick. Never did. I texted her the next evening, and she said she was busy trying to get shit together. Okay, I get that. We texted back and forth about one of my classes, and I asked her if she got moved in to her apartment, she stopped texting me. Okay...
So I left her alone for a few days. I tried to call her yesterday, no answer. I tried today, no answer. I checked her Facebook. Her sister posted a few things over the course of several days saying they were hanging out and tubing, going to the lake and what-not. Too busy, huh? So I sent her this text, "So, I don't know if I did something to offend you, or are you just wanting to blow me off or what? I'm not trying to be an asshole, but I know there is something you are not telling me right now, and to be honest, it kind of stings. I know you are going to tell me you are busy, but it's kind of hard to look that way when Sariah tags you in a bunch of shit on Facebook and says you are at the lake and shit. I don't expect you to blow off your sisters, but at least text me? You never told me how things were and if your Mom followed thru or anything. The Hannah I now would have jumped at the chance . I just wanna know whats up and how things are." Nothing. She never said a damn thing. Hannah would have texted or called and just told me , "Hey! I'm busy! I'll call when I can!" Just to ease my mind. Not a fucking thing.
So, I checked Lester's Facebook, because it's all public. It says, "Taking tech to go swimming today. He loves the water. We get out new dog on friday can't wait she is so pretty" Tech is his pitbull. Hannah told me about Lester wanting a new dog before she left him, and she was opposed. But read that status. It says WE get OUR new dog. WE! And they don't have room mates. She's back with him. He hates me. She made the choice, between me and him. A choice she promised me that she would never make, and she did.
I feel like I just went through a bad break-up, and I just want to puke and punch something. What the hell? And when he did what he did? He poured beer all over her AND their son!! WHO DOES THAT?!?! WHO GOES BACK TO THAT?!?! Why cut me off? Why not just tell me? I told to please never lie to me, and I would never judge her, and she lied! All the shit I told her I went through with Tiffany, and she promised me she would never act like that, and she did!! Why the hell am I so hurt? It's just another female, why care, right? I just thought she was different. She was so down to earth, and it's all gone. I feel so lonely. I just don't even know how I feel.
The Hannah I knew would have contacted me three days ago. This isn't like her and I knew something was fishy when she didn't give me any details about going back. I am the friend that knows shit is going down with her over a feeling. That's the kind of friends we were. And for her to think she can hide this shit? Jesus. I don't know whether to mad or not right now. I just know that I have cried a lot today, and I'm physically sick over it.
Fuck.
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