I'm still flatly denying it, and I'm thoroughly convinced it's wrong, but the doctor's scale clocked me in over 300 today. I was so sure I had lost some weight, but it turns out I was wrong, and I'm devastated. I swore all my life that I would never, ever be this heavy, and now I am. The only glimmer of hope is that my new doctor is really nice, really smart, and has already got me two referrals for some issues and is helping me to start addressing a few more. I have another appointment next week to see her again and get some labs drawn to see if there are any other issues, other than the obvious that we need to address. Beyond that, I just feel numb right now.
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