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previous entry: Morning Thoughts (January 21st, 2009)

next entry: Blessings, Boasts and Thoughts (January 25th, 2009)

Morning Thoughts (January 24st, 2009)

01/24/2009

1. The things you’re grateful to have
Kittens. Access to a car, for as long as it lasts. Hydro. Running water. Food. Money. Family who loves me. A weekend. A job that is fulfilling. Medication. A new start every day.

2. The things you’re grateful NOT to have
Creditors calling. An eviction notice. Dependants.

3. What you don’t like about yourself
I am fearful.

4. How you can change what you don’t like about yourself
I really don't know. I keep coming up with bs ideas, but asides from "therapy" which I can't afford right now, I'm not at all sure what I can do about it.

5. Your greatest qualities
I am a visionary. I am kind. I am understanding. I am discerning and insightful. I have awesome mommy-powers. I am strong. I am persistent. I am loyal. I am discriminating. I am love.

6. Your life goals
I aim to be stable health-wise, so that I may plan and execute something like a life. I aim to stabilize my financial situation so that deficits are never again part of my day-to-day life (mortgages and car loans are not day-to-day). I aim to no longer be dependant on anyone, so that I may be a true interdependent partner, and no longer feel I must sell myself for my safety. I aim to be a property owner. I aim to have a job that is emotionally and financially fulfilling, and to achieve whatever education is necessary for it. I aim to have children, and to raise them as best as I can, within the boundaries of what I know is right, and screw what society tries to tell me, because it's broken. I aim to quickly reach the point where I feel no shame for anything that I consume. I aim to convert a cargo van into a gypsy waggon, for cross-continental travelling purposes. I aim to overhaul a vehicle, on my own, to the extent I deem feasible. I aim to be able to look at myself in the mirror, without shame. I aim to be the personification of my beliefs, and to be an inspiration to those around me.

7. How yesterday’s problems are today’s motivation
If I spend an entire day sleeping, obviously I pushed myself too hard the day before.

8. What you want to do today
I want to take my meds, take it easy, and have fun seeing my family. I want to not take too many opiates, because I'm almost out, again, and that isn't good. I want to get the house kinda put together before I leave, just in case people come crash it at any point this weekend.

9. How you can make someone else’s day a little brighter
I'm going to Maren's to see Shereen and Elyse and give 'Lyses her Christmas/birthday presents!!

10. You only have one life
Just breathe.

previous entry: Morning Thoughts (January 21st, 2009)

next entry: Blessings, Boasts and Thoughts (January 25th, 2009)

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i want kittens! but sadly, i already have 4 cats...they don't stay kittens for very long, lol.

are you getting evicted??

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