I had a pack a day habit, that was gradually turning into a pack and a half a day habit (30 a day). It was something I associated with driving, after eating, before bed, first waking up, breaks at work, and it was pretty bad at times. I quit cold turkey on September 29th 2009. I had been sick with bronchitis and the flu, and smoking was just making it worse. I was so exhausted that I could barely move, and I was so sick that I couldn't tell if I was going through withdrawal or if it was just me being sick.
I realized a few days later that I had essentially quit smoking, so I gave away the pack and a half that I had left, and left it at that. I still have cravings pretty much every day, some days worse than others. Same thing with smelling them. Both of my parents still smoke, and I can smell it on them when they come home. Some days, it'll make me feel ill, and others, I'll just want a cigarette.
The thing is, it's an addiction. Once an addict, always an addict, and while I may not be smoking now, those receptors in my brain still go haywire once in a while, and I'll feel like I'm having a nic-fit. The hardest thing for me was being around smokers. I'm surrounded by them at home, at work, and a lot of my friends smoke. Work is a big problem, because so many of my coworkers smoke, and I'm used to going on smoke breaks with them. I've messed up a few times, taken a drag here or there, and every time, I've felt sick.
I try not to think of it in terms of "I quit smoking", and I try not to gloat about it, because the last time I made a big deal about quitting, I failed miserably. I'm taking it one day at a time, so that if I do screw up, it's not a huge deal, and I don't feel like I failed.
Lol, maybe I should just write an entry...