holy shit i got offline for one night and i miss the best thread ever. lol.
if something was bugging me that badly and it concerned my mental or physical health i wouldn't turn to bloopers. not that their advice isn't appreciated, it's just that experiences of everyone differs and what worked one someone may not work for me. that and asking for advice over the internet can be dangerous. as much as i wasn't into seeing a doctor for certain things i knew that despite any bad experiences i had, that they would be the best people to see.
if you're not interested in seeing any health care professionals, there's really not much more anyone here can do to help you, and given your attitude, i'm not sure many would want to now. you may just be coming off rude without realising you're doing it because you're stressed over this, but really the way you've treated some people here who were only trying to help was appalling.
if all you want to hear is that you're not alone and that people suffer from similar things, then well, they do and you aren't alone. but you won't get any proper help without asking someone with some training behind it face to face. that's all we can say really. if you're going to ask for help, don't be so belligerent.