This year I'll spend Chrristmas with my family. I will be surrounded by people who all have partners and lives. And I don't want to go. I don't want that reminder that a few months ago my happily ever after was snatched away from me in the blink of an eye. I don't want the reminder that he dumped me for a woman who doesn't even want him. I don't want the reminder that traditions we had made are no longer. I'm mad and heartbroken and I don't understand how a person could do what he did. I don't understand how I couldn't see that he was gaslighting me with every fight we had. He had no respect for me. How did I not see it?
I am alone.
I'm not fine.
But I will be.
Most importantly, I love myself, and that's the biggest flex there is.