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never not beautiful;
by cherie_xx

previous entry: blackout.

next entry: a bad influence on you.

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02/22/2009

Grant got in touch with me today with a Facebook message.

"Hey u, how u doin?? My weeks gone frm crap to utter shite as ive gone & lost my mobile, sumtime on thursday nite! No idea what iv done with it, been back to the pubs, spoken to the taxi man etc its just vanished! I also dont have insurance on it so dnt knw how im gona go about sorting a new1 js yet! Grrrr

Anyways, thought id let u knw as u maybe waiting on a reply to a & certainly hope your status isnt directed at me lol!

xx"


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What an idiot! In just a few days he'd misplaced his wallet and completely lost his phone! He referred to my Facebook status, which at the time read 'Cheryl gets the hint. Goodbye.' - I changed it to something better now! lol. It's still going to kill me knowing that I can't text Grant and that I won't hear from him very much. I'm very much determined to meet him, my friend Jodie even offered to come along with me if I needed some support. Knowing that Jodie and another friend, Jodie's boyfriend, Dan know about Grant helps a lot, I can talk to them about it and tell them how scared, confused and happy he makes me feel. They're the only ones in 'real life' that know about Grant, I don't think I'd be able to cope with all this crazy without Jodie! She's a bad influence, she encourages it but still supports me when I'm not feeling so great about what I'm doing.

Tomorrow my parents come for a visit and we're going out to lunch. Then I'm going to cook a stir fry dinner for James and myself, James also suggested going out to the cinema in the evening. James had booked the day off as holiday and he usually works in the evenings, so to go out and do something when we have the chance is nice.

Last night we had a little breakdown at bedtime. I was sad because of Grant and I'd failed to mention to James the fact that I was going away next week for work for a new store opening. I'd mentioned in passing but not confirmed to him that I was actually going and to be the team leader as well. James voiced his concerns in bed while I cried a few tears for Grant, he said he felt like we don't talk anymore. It made my few tiny tears turn into a flood and I confessed that in the evenings while he worked I got really lonely and the reason I went out on Friday evening with my friends was because I'd told them how awful it is to be home alone so much. It was good to tell him that I missed him and that I felt lonely but I couldn't bring myself to say I'd been texting another guy for three weeks while pretending to be texting my friend Jodie!

This whole thing is getting even more screwed up, especially if Grant does want to meet up with me for a date! lol.

Two updates in a day, gosh how I love my Bloop! ♥






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i think you should come clean with james. i feel so bad for him. :[

[lady jodiStar|0 likes] [|reply]

i think you should try to meet him and see what happens, things are always different when you meet people.

[photobooth.Star|0 likes] [|reply]

I really have no idea what to advise! Just do whatever makes you feel happy I guess.

Going to another store opening should be fun anyway!

[stolenpromiseStar|0 likes] [|reply]

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