grass is green. | 03/23/2009 |
Grant actually text me today and I plucked up the courage to start a conversation with him on Facebook chat. It was weird to hear from him and nice at the same time. I don't feel the same way about him now as I did a few weeks back. I definitely realise that I made a lot of stuff up in my head, you know, the whole grass is greener thing! Grant said he'd make an effort to stay in touch with me, which is really nice considering he's dating someone now. I just want him in my life, he's actually been really good for me - after all the torture I put myself through! lol. I don't think I would've had the guts to go for a job, or accept the offer, if I didn't have Grant telling me to go for it. I hear that stuff from James all the time, but after a while I didn't believe him - I guess I just needed to hear it from someone else, someone not to close to me. I hope that Grant will stay in touch, especially now I'm not lusting after him! lol. I had a moment of madness.
Things with James are much better now, I wonder if it's because of Grant or just coincidence. I'm so desperate to move house and have a fresh start, James has no idea how much I need it and I can't really come out and tell him what I've been up to for the past 6 weeks! lol. I'm going to focus on my holiday in September a lot more now - it's only 176 days away! lol.
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Have you told James that you're desperately needing a new start? You could just say that you feel in a rut or something?
^^^I could use a Grant myself!! lol!
