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In The Shadows
by Concrete Rose

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Well... Ok

06/21/2012

So I finally got a txt from Mark last night. All it said was, "I am way busy, and having phone issues." Well that's fine and dandy. Is your computer having issues, too? A few years ago when his computer was having issues I wanted to ask if his phone did. What the hell. I should just be glad I heard from him I guess. But it still doesn't help when he didn't even say he missed me or anything. And he really hasn't talked to me in 2-3 weeks, so has he been having problems this while time and just now telling me? It's frustrating...



And I'm still dizzy. Now I can really notice it when I walk. I feel like I'm on a boat again. I'm not happy about it. I thought it was because of my period, but I haven't had it since Sunday morning. It doesn't help that it's been so hot lately and work is horrible. It feels good when you walk in, but after 5 minutes you can't notice it anymore. And when you work 6-8 hours its horrible. We have a few fans, but it just blows the hot air around.



I thought I was getting better, and I felt good for about 2-3 months, and now I feel like I'm back at the beginning again. I haven't told Mom or anyone else yet. I'm hoping it'll go away. I'm not sure if it's stress related, because then it would be because of Mark. And I hate if it is because some day he really will be gone and then I'll be going through this again...................



Mom and Dad got a new vehicle. A Kia Sorento. I'm a little jealous! But there is no way I could afford one right now. I just feel out of the loop because Dad got a new truck in October, Melissa got a new car a month or so ago, and now they got this. So I feel like it's my turn! But I really don't want a car payment and there is really nothing wrong with my car. I can't believe I've had it for 5 years already! I drove it and it's really nice. But there are some features my car has that this doesn't, and I would definitely miss them. That's what sucks is that not all vehicles are the same and the features you love you might not get the next time.



Sheila's daughter had cheerleading practice this morning, so we walked a mile around the track. But it was already 80* so we didn't walk anymore. I suggested going to Kinzua, but she said Shane didn't feel good. I asked why he couldn't just stay home. But I know that if he can't go, then God forbid the rest of his family be able to. If not I'll just get in my little pool outside and then take a nap. That's probably what I really should do if I'm not feeling the greatest.



My friend Melissa had a spa party, but I couldn't go. I placed an order online, though. I got a body wash and a body lotion and it was $38! Plus the shipping and tax, so it came to around $46. What a joke! But she ordered from me when I had a few parties, and I'm hoping to have a Tupperware party, so you have to do what you have to do...



Last week I also ordered jewelry from someone because she ordered stuff from my Pampered Chef party. And then Dana is having a Thirty One party, so that's the same story... But like I said, I want to have a Tupperware party in a few months, so you have to be nice to people! The again, I could've just taken the $150+ I've bought from other people and put it towards Tupperware. So in a way you really aren't making out, because you're spending money on other people. Oh well!



I think Sheila said her daughter might be selling Zap-a-Snacks, so I'll probably spend another $50 there! But those are so damn good and I haven't had any in a few years, so I guess it's worth it.



Maybe I'll be writing more often. I stopped writing so often because I was feeling better, but I guess I shouldn't have stopped. And this thing with Mark has been eating away at me for 3 weeks and I haven't wrote about it or anything, so it's been nice getting that off my chest.

 


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