TV?

07/13/2012

I had no idea there was a TV show abut Polyamory. In fact, I think maybe last night was the premiere of the show? It was on Showtime. Imagine my surprise to be browsing the TV listing after our son was asleep and finding this. My husband and I looked at each other and we could see the shock on each others faces. I set it up to DVR the series, and then we watched. It was weird to see other people with similar thoughts. We decided it was definitely worth watching to see how things unfold for these people.

After Polyamory came on The Real L Word came on. I had no idea shows like this existed! App this is a show about lesbian woman and their relationships - kind of in a reality show way? It reminds me of that show I watch once... The Hills or something like that that completely sucked, basically because I was not able to identify with woman with an indiscriminate amount of mo9ney at their finger tips and as I don't drink I generally don't enjoy watching people get sloshed and act like complete idiots, especially on TV, when there are far better things to do.

While watching the Real L Word I couldn't help but feel this pang in my being. Something screaming to me saying that I'm supposed to be there. In that situation. I'm supposed to be with a woman. But where does that leave me with my husband? I love him, and I'm so glad to be married to him. It is difficult to sort out these feelings and thoughts, and more difficult to know what to do with them.