My husband is so back and forth. Yes it is okay for me to have a girlfriend - no he doesn't think he would be able to handle it and will get jealous - he just wants a threesome - he doesn't think he could do a threesome. *sigh*
I understand it isn't an easy decision. That it is scary. It is just frustrating to me. I'm trying to be patient.
The other day he said if we weren't married it would be different. Why? What the heck is the difference? I am just as committed to him emotionally now that we are married as I was to him a year ago, or two years ago. I'm not understanding what getting married changed other than the way we file our taxes, and that we now each own a nice ring. Had I known that changed something in his mind, I would have pushed to wait and get married in a couple more years. I couldn't exactly seek out a girlfriend while I was pregnant or while juggling a newborn and work for the first time ever.
On top of that, we discovered last night that we have never really done foreplay. It was always just boom! Sex! I got mine (plenty) and he got his.. done. Don't get me wrong we have had great sex. But last night I wanted him to get me worked up before we got down to business and we realized he has never really had to or done it to me before. I don't know if mentally I'm blocking him or what but we were just not connecting last night and it was disappointing for the both of us. |
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