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Beyond Belief
by A RedSox Fan

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714 A true diary entry


714 A true diary entry 05 31 15

Dear diary, I woke up this morning feeling down. It felt strange to me. I have felt down before, I’m human after all, but I don’t ever recall feeling down upon waking up. I didn’t like it. It wasn’t like I was thinking of anything and it made me feel down, I felt that way upon waking up. Then I thought about it and wondered why or how I could feel this way and the more I thought about it, the further I fell down.

Just like most mornings, I woke up and sent Karen a text-email.
Today’s read: Good morning beautiful, can’t wait to hold u & kiss u again

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[foreverglow|0 likes] [|reply]

I think we all wake up and feel a little off on some days. Last week, I woke up with the worst feeling, feeling very negative and wanting to cry - I'm sure yours wasn't as dramatic as mine but you know what I mean.

Just off days.

Did she end up replying to you today? I wasn't sure if the "latah" comment was from 10 years ago or today.

You are ever so patient with that woman!

& I'm sorry to hear about your situation at work, start looking elsewhere - those hours don't suffice.

Hope your parent's get it together. Too old for that sh.. Just kidding.

[septemberocioStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Well shit, I didn't know you were blind. Like, in all the entries you wrote there was no hint of it. You play it off pretty well. Lol

[septemberocioStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I didn't mean anything bad by it, simply how I loosely express myself. So, now I completely get it. Braille isn't really in my daily vocab, and I read all of that, I just simply though it was something you liked. Wow. Please excuse me. Now I completely understand why there was so much touching Well, you just became much more cooler.

[septemberocioStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I wake up discouraged every day. I know the feeling. I didn't realize Karen wasn't talking to you much. The way you've mentioned her lately it seemed as though she talks to you all the time now. Hm.

[Mrs. Evans|0 likes] [|reply]

So sorry to hear you woke up feeling down, and all the drama going off in your life. I hope things get better soon xx

[theUpsandDownsofLife|0 likes] [|reply]

That's impressive & rewarding. I thought about going into that field and took courses until I was thrown into nutrition.

[septemberocioStar|0 likes] [|reply]

჻ೋ჻჻ೋ჻ I'm definitely not as patient as you. I don't think I could put emotions into a person who says they care about me but is in a relationship with someone else. That would piss me off, but I'm not a patient person! I'm sorry she hasn't been talking to you as much lately.

I hope you can find a job that will make you happy and feel fulfilled! You deserve that.

I know the negative thoughts come and go, but just hang in there. We all go through it and deal with the down times. I just try to focus on the good in my life, even if it's small things. I hope you have a great weekend!

[Belle Ivy RoseStar|0 likes] [|reply]

a few quick thoughts, having been through more shit in my life than an average person....DON'T STRESS SO MUCH!.....

1- No special lady of my own
(I'm way older than you and me either but I have a blast)

2-My parents are …my mom isn’t talking to my dad and hasn’t for a few weeks now.
( This is their issue, not yours, I'm sure the both still love you)

3-My mom owes me lots of money and I’m unsure how she’s going to pay me back.
(of course you would like to get it back but she's yor mother and anytime you lend money to friends of family, you should always be predated for te non payback issue - and think before you lend it, "am I willing to lose this money" - I always did)

4-I get to hear all the negative crap from both of them about each other and yet I see it myself about them.
(You already know it so don't listen to it)

5- I’m trying to plan a birthday dinner for my mom and my sibs are no help right now. I came up with a few places we could go and asked them which they thought would be best and my sister said “just ask her”. But that takes away from the bit of surprise plus hey, we can do this on our own. We’re grown adults.
(so, as you said you are trying to plan a party - PLAN IT - fuck the siblings if they don't want to help. You do it, for the love of your mama and your siblings can get on board with youi or not - doesn't matter)

dude - don't short change yourself - do your thing - your are an amazing man

[TheHighlander|0 likes] [|reply]

Sorry you are down things will get better just keep your head up and the season is still early our Sox will pick it up I promise I don't know what to say Abbott Karen except follow your heart but don't let your self get hurt again

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