I was drankin, I was drankin... The wine kicked in and I was texting Roman last night like it was nobody's business ugh I couldn't help it but he had been texting me first so I didn't feel so pathetic. We had made plans to go to breakfast this morning since I had off but I forgot that I promised my friend I'd do her make up for a job interview she had today, she paid me for it and I couldn't just cancel on her so we didn't go to breakfast. After I went to the gym with my bestie Terry and finally told her everything that's been going in the past couple of days she wants me to be careful with him which I will be but he misses me and wants me just as bad as I want and miss him. I know its onky been a couple of days but I miss his hugs and I miss his kisses, I just miss him. I tried to upload the screen shots from our texts but it says I can't because I'm to new to the system but I'll write it out.
Him: I was thinkin
Me: Are you gonna tell me about what? Lol
Him: I wanna take you out for your big 21
Me: I already have plans with my girls -_-
Him: You only celebrate 1 day LOL will go somewhere real nice, I'll get you the best wine cause you're a wine snob LOL whenever you make time for me pretty girl jus promise me you will
Me: Trying to win me back huh? Lol
Him: Hell yeah be my baby
Me: I was your baby but you didn't want me :(
Him: That's not true I always want you Lauren
Me: How am I supposed to know that. You broke it off with me and there wasn't even a we according to you
Him: You have to be patient with me I wasnt lookin for you You snuck up on me
Me: I'll be patient but no other girls I won't sit around while you do you.
Him: Let me come show you how much I want you that pu--y is mine and no one elses
Me: oh you're such a sweet talker lol
Him: Fuck it you need me to say it your my girl I want you all day everyday I wanna be the man your proud to be with I gota lota shit but It fucked me up seein you leave the other night. Let me come over so we can talk I don't wanna do this shit over the phone. Its not about sex I do want you & you know that but I won't beg you if you don't wanna see me
I told him to come over when he gets off he's supposed to call me. I vow to myself to not sleep with him. But he sounds like feels how I do right? I mean he's willing to give me what I want all I had to do was walk away. Do I seem petty? I can't make him be in a relationship just like he can't make me be his fuck budy which let's be honest wouldn't take much convincing on his part but I know what I want and I know what we have is worth a try. Or maybe im just blinded by how he majes me feel! Ugh!!! Anyway enough about Roman.
My born day is Thursday so I'll be celebrating this weekend but I'm not sure what I want to do, I thought I'd have everything all planned out by now but I don't. Terry said she has a surprise for me which scares me! I'm thinking just bar hoping the whole night I don't really want to go to a club but I do for sure wanna wear a sexy outfit which I STILL have to go shopping for. I am the queen if last minute oy!! I'll be going shopping with the girls before work via face time this week Lol. Ugh OK so now that the fluff is out of the way I can say/write and the forget about this. My lunatic alcoholic mother contacted me in fb. I chose to ignore her. I'm surprised she even remembered I was alive. OK that's over. I'm kinda mad I even gave her those 3 sentences. Blah |
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