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what a day. It was hectic from the moment we woke up...arghh. Spent all afternoon interviewing new babysitters, and I definetely found the perfect one. SO happy with that!! It's a huge amount of stress off my mind.


Master is out playing poker right now...again. Ugh, I feel almost jealous of the game at times. He's definetely got a gambling problem. But, we're not hurting on bills or anything though, so I don't feel lie I have any right to complain. But, I get jealous of it. Silly, right? Jealous, of a stack of cards!? Silliness. Oh well. Looking forward to him getting home, I have directions of exactly what I should be wearing & I can tell by what he's requested, it's going to be a damn good night.


My ex has been on my mind a lot today...We dated between November 08 and July 09...Even went so far as to get engaged. We split up and I met Master & that was that...but I am almost getting pangs of wanting to go back to him. It's silly, I know, and I'm sure it's too late, but...Blah. I think that's why I've been in the funky mood - I miss him. And I'm just now really mourning what was a fabulous relationship - we split up over a lack of respect, but GOD the potential was there. He was a genuinely good man. I don't know what to think...I think it's because Master & I have been discussing marriage & it's just bringing up a lot of old feelings & yeah. I dunno. We'll see. Hopefully it all blows over...