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i don't need the answers
by spinnerette

previous entry: sympathy for the devil

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living so free it's a tragedy

01/01/2009

crayon box


when you can't be what you wanna be.


i fell into an old routine like clockwork the other day. and it was so scary. and i feel like my heart's still beating irregularly, i have a dentist appointment next week & i feel like he's going to be able to tell, which is ridiculous.. i haven't purged since forever, at least a few months, but i guess it's a day by day thing. it's just that the more i try to stay away from it, the more i gain weight, and the more ugly i get. i'm trying not to make a weight-related resolution, other than to smash my scale into a million pieces in hopes that it'll somehow cure the general distaste for life and myself. but there are such bigger things going on in the world, i feel like the most superficial bitch ever. hopefully this year will be different in that sense.

okay, i'm totally guilty of making ridiculously far-fetched goals & resolutions for the new years.. but here we go again. i tried to make mine a little more mature. did it work?

1.) become social again. quit putting off seeing friends, ignoring some, and hating old ones for no good reason. it's done. it's 09! time to grow up.
2.) transfer to mankato state uni and NOT become an alcoholic.
3.) start taking multi-vitamins EVERY SINGLE DAY. and for that matter, drink more water too.
4.) start blogging more - and about meaningful things. quit being so fucking shallow. prove everyone wrong, get in touch with politics.
5.) make at least $1,000 with treasure trooper.
6.) have a huge garage sale in the summer.
7.) go to cali with c on vaca.
8.) quit wearing so much makeup. it gets annoying having to put layers and layers of primer and foundation on just to look semi-normal. yuck.
9.) QUIT SHOPPING AT HOLLISTER/A&F. start shopping consignment & thrifting again.
10.) QUIT DRINKING STARBUCKS, no matter how yummy pepper mocha twist's are.
11.) get out of debt and stay the hell out.
12.) get a new and improved job.
13.) read things. become smarter. less cosmo, more .. peter kropotkin. or however you spell that guys name.
14.) give up the grudge.
15.) become less selfish, more caring.
16.) become stronger. physically..and emotionally.
17.) volunteer @ habitat for humanity. whenever time opens up.
18.) enjoy life and everything it has to offer. quit living in the past and quit hating yourself. finally be able to say i get the bigger picture.

new addition = start taking pictures often. and be better at posting and commenting on bloop!

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sounds like some awesome resolutions!!! hope you can stick to them!! ♥

[i`m his lil bearrr.|0 likes] [|reply]

Thanks for the comment!


And hope u can stick to ur plentiful of resolutions!

[xoxo- Vivian|0 likes] [|reply]

sounds like some pretty good resolutions.
hop you stick to them =]
and i love your piccy, your very pretty.
take care x

[Vulnerable Beauty;;|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC:

Aww, lol I'd never do that!

It's amazing going to places like that - I love travelling!

[Harley QuinnStar|0 likes] [|reply]

damn girl you came up with quite a list! i couldn't even really think of one. well, you are lovely & from what i can see it doesn't look like you need primer or foundation at all. me on the other hand... anyway, hope your new year is off to a great start.

[junkie|0 likes] [|reply]

funny thing is, i didn't drink any alcohol! haha.

[burt|0 likes] [|reply]

1) the pepper mocha twinst won't be around much longer?
2) thrifting/consignment is hella fun and hella cheap, so it should come naturally.
3) why the hell do you wear makeup anyway? you're gorgeous.
4) blogging more i agree with, but you don't have tobe deep and meaningful. write anything and i'll read it.
5) you commented me today, so that's a start.
um, i think that's it for the mo'.
oh, ryc: itec = this fancypants bra that has some moulding in the cups, no seams, blah blah blah. i'm sure it's a rip off of a victoria's secret bra called vtec or something. anyway, they're costly, but mine wasn't, and makes for nice boobies. hoorah.

[girlsetsfire|0 likes] [|reply]

you could always go on walks. or even to the gym a couple times a week.

[burt|0 likes] [|reply]

How can you quit drinking Starbucks!?

[Harley QuinnStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I reckon if you cut down on the alcohol and eat healthily and take your multivitamins and drink more water, your skin will clear up so you won't feel the need to wear make-up (if that's the reason for you wearing it). But in your pictures you look gorgeous, so I personally don't even think you *need* to wear it. xD

Funny how one goal helps others.

If you wanna become stronger physically, do yoga. xD

Hey, at least you know who Peter Kropotkin (?) is. xD

[rubusStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I love your hair! The colour is so gorgeous.

Lots of resolutions! Good luck with them.
God knows they can be a pain in the ass sometimes!!
I agree with other commenters: you don't need make-up cause FYI you are damn gorgeous!

That's sort of why I am glad Starbucks ISN'T here anymore. The temptation has been removed. lol. Now they just need to ban energy drinks so I can stop drinking them!! UGH!

[earth ♥ angelStar|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC: hehe. Yeah. I wasn't really unhappy with the gift Robby gave me. Just completely surprised, but maybe he led me on to thinking I was getting something else, on purpose, so that I would be surprised.

Ily and I have missed you! Hope to read another entry from you soon!

[earth ♥ angelStar|0 likes] [|reply]

good luck on your resolutions. :]

[KENDRA BETH.|0 likes] [|reply]

hardy har har if you lived in hilo, at my coffee shop we can do non-fat sugar free fraps, and even like that they're so much better than starbucks ...i bet if you go to more local, small business coffee shops they'll actually have better variety like that

good luck with your resolutions.... dont worry we all get suckered into being superficial..... i am, i hate it so much, but i am..... it's just how things are these days sadly. but at least you're noticing things like that, that you want to change!!!!! so even if you dont stick to your resolutions 100%, you still are trying.

[christianna♥Star|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC: i hated her long before that movie..lol

[Project Overkill|0 likes] [|reply]

pfft. vegan. um, i suppose you would substitute the pork with some... pork-tasting tofu? and the chicken broth with vegetable broth. that's really all it would take.
actually, when i mentioned to my friend that i was making wonton soup she asked if it was veggie (i like to call her a recovering vegan ). we've agreed to a wonton-off (if my recipe's any good) because she claims to have a wicked all-veg recipe. i'll keep you posted.

[girlsetsfire|0 likes] [|reply]

ryc: its from my whole life.. im trying to reach 1000 before 30 so im keeping track

[.Ban.Ignorance.Star|0 likes] [|reply]

thanks :] and i know she's got such a great voice!

[StaRRyEyDSupRizStar|0 likes] [|reply]

thank you! so much

[Living_my_life|0 likes] [|reply]

ryc ;; yes for right now i am just planning on getting my bachelors.

[burt|0 likes] [|reply]

SKULL PIXELSKULL PIXELDIVIDER

RYC:

WHOOT WHOOT ♥

HEART PIXEL Take Care HEART PIXEL

[Harley QuinnStar|0 likes] [|reply]

hope you can stick to the resoutions and haha a lot of people didnt get the joke.

[bratpunkyg02|0 likes] [|reply]

i tried to sell them back, they didnt buy them.

idk if i trust craigslist or not cause i've heard of alot of people getting ripped off on there.

[*tiffymae*|0 likes] [|reply]

i've done a fafsa before. but without their permission i can't get ahold of their information. :[

[jodiStar|0 likes] [|reply]

i haven't tried any scholarships yet.

[jodiStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Omgosh, yes. They are hilarious!

[tumbling;echo xxStar|0 likes] [|reply]

well thats cool. see, the person i sold my book to is in navada. thats what i like is that you can sell to anyone anywhere.

[*tiffymae*|0 likes] [|reply]

ryc: It's not just you

[.like.a.drug.|0 likes] [|reply]

that is an extreme list. in length, i mean. mine are to take better care of my teeth and braces so they can come off in april so i can get them whitened, try to be more positive, stretch every morning, and eat a piece of chocolate a day.

because i deserve it.

hahaha.

ryc: they are really awesome. they are in my top 5 favorite bands. lol

[omg it's jessica!Star|0 likes] [|reply]

agreed.

[♥ quotes|0 likes] [|reply]

lol. ready for this insane mixture?

anything andrew mcmahon - something corporate or jack's mannequin.
trapt.
bowling for soup.
cobra starship.

woo! lol.

i used to have 'fitness' goals but...i can't ever keep them. i CAN make myself get out of bed and stretch in the mornings, though. i'm hoping to intensify my stretches as the year goes on into yoga, or something resembling it. lol!

[omg it's jessica!Star|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC thanks

she reali didnt need a new butt i guess it was all safe or "safe" im not sure i guess they take the fat from ur other part of the body then pump it in the butt or other areas...

and she was gegorous before but she was always super self concious abt her self i never understood why

i guess her other skinny friends (my friend is like a model gegorous) would notice if she gained 5 pounds...

she always gotten model ofers but she wans to be skinny like paris hilton, nicole richie, mk and ashley olson...

personally i think they are plain out ugly with thier bodies..

but shes like perfect

[*~Amber~*|0 likes] [|reply]

i like those, good luck
i know i'd need it

[starleigh|0 likes] [|reply]

haha I had a resolution to drink less starbucks....and then I realized I feel incomplete if I dont have a white chocolate mocha or a gingersnap latte......so delishhh haha

and ryc: haha no, TI is the one going to jail.

[youaretheroots|0 likes] [|reply]

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