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~Can Only Go Up~'s Diary
by ~Can Only Go Up~

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Some things don't change

01/21/2011

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Screw it!
I actually got some sleep last night thanks to Kevin who stayed up with Brooklyn until 4am. And then it was my turn, so I've been up since 4am and I get to close work tonight so I might be home by 11pm. I'm catching up on Teen Mom 2 and it's cool because it gives me a reason to cry even though I'm really not paying that much attention to it. I guess since it is just me and B right now that I could just cry but I don't want her to see me crying. I thought we were doing fine, but Kevin was on FB this morning and sent his old girlfriend a happy birthday message. I didn't say anything but it tore me to pieces. Just a couple days ago I denied my ex a friend request. Kevin kept asking me about it so I told him that I didn't have time for my ex to be in my life. Which is true, I don't, but apparently he does. It just makes me mad that I'm trying so hard to keep myself straight and he could care less. His computer's sitting within arms reach. I could easily log into his account and delete all his exs but I want it to be something that he realizes bothers me and he deletes them. It will never happen but a girl can dream right? B is sleeping next to my leg and it kills me to look at her so peaceful knowing that soon she'll be having these same thoughts and she'll be crying over a boy and I honestly don't know how I'm going to make her feel better because I can't even use her own father as an example. What sucks even more is that I know if I say anything to him he'll blow it off and think I'm blowing it out of proportion or being emotional.....it will be the same thing as it was last time I said something except that time I did go in and delete them and they ended back on his friends list. It's crap like this that pushes me ever more closer to not giving a damn and walking out on him and taking my daughter with me. Is that legal? Can I just up and leave with her?
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i don't get why he wants to be friends with them when he has you and a beautiful baby girl? I just don't get it.

[Proud Wife and Mom|0 likes] [|reply]

That would upset me too. There really is no reason for him to be talking to his ex-girlfriend. I would want him to delete them too because it would bother me.

And I am not sure if you can leave with your daughter and not get in trouble. I think it might be different for each state. I doubt it would be to difficult to find out though.

I do hope things get better between you two though.

[Love like crazy!|0 likes] [|reply]

Yes I think you can if you are not married but you may be in for a fight if he really cares for you and your daughter.....it may not be so easy to not have to share her with him. It is always better to stay then to have to give her away. Visitation can suck big time when you cannot be with her, it just depends how involved he wants to be in her life.

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