whatever I was going to write has suddenly flown my brain due to a stupid email from the school about financial aid. I wish they would all just get on the same page and that people would stop telling me different things. One person says I need to pay nothing, that financial aid and pell will cover it all, then another says $500 every 4th class and now they change their story to $2000 and say that the pell may not be granted and I'm like "What the hell" as if I didn't already have enough anxiety because I can't pay my monthly bill and they want me to dump my entire tax refund into going to school, what good would that do me? GGGGRRRRRRR (breatheeeee)
Depression and anxiety are really starting to get to me lately. The financial aspect and worrying about this major life change and then worrying about him worrying and my medical issues is soooo not helping the situation either. I gotta find some way to get some of these issues taken care of cause I have so much to do and so little time to do it in and all I want to do it sleep right now or vege and dammit, I've gained some weight back again and that sucks, but the donuts sure tasted good and kept me happy for a little bit. bI just can't seem to get a break in anything right now and wishing things will change is not getting me anywhere but I don't have the gumption to get things done cause I start and get distracted and then get depressed because I didn't finish and it's a horribly vicioius cycle that I can't seem to break out of. |
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