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BumbleBee's Diary
by BumbleBee

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life's a bitch.

06/02/2009





we're one mistake from being together. you won't be seventeen forever.



so yesterday i had lots of thinking time and i'm still trying to figure out what i'm going to do next year when i graduate.
the only reason i began thinking about it seriously again is because my recruiter was at school and then we texted for a while just talking about stuff. i don't think he quite gets the fact that his life in the marine corp might be nice but luke's isn't right now and if i sign, it will just make things harder for our relationship.
luke tells me i can do what ever i want because i have to have a life too but he is my life. he has helped me think of all kinds of things i can do too so i know he cares.
there is a community college down the road from the base which i can get all my electives done and spend time with him before i go to another school but i don't know how much i want to go to college like it sounds appealing sometimes and other times it doesn't. and also if he isn't there like he has to go out on a ship or go to afghanistan, i can't be there by myself yet. it's all just confusing and he tells me we can cross that bridge when we get there which is true but i need a little structure or an idea because that's just how i am.
another thing is, some people don't agree with the fact that we will be married so young and that i might not do things for myself. i don't know what i want to do for myself so being with him at the beginning of the journey is fine with me and maybe i can figure some things out.
i realize i still have a year to think about all this stuff and i try to push it back in my mind but some how it always gets brought back up and then i have to think about it.
i'm just so confused. i wish i just knew what i wanted to do.


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[The LurkerStar|0 likes] [|reply]

it's tough to figure out what you want to do "when you grow up", and even harder still when you add a loved one into the mix.
(hugs)
i wish i knew what to say!!
♥

[BrownEyedMonkeyStar|0 likes] [|reply]

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well number one you want to be with Luke so that should be the number one thing that you do. he comes naturally however the rest of your plans don't and thats why you're confused and thats why many people have trouble in relationships because of their priority confusions. just do what makes you happy (Luke) then worry about the rest later ; )

[Eternal Sunhine|0 likes] [|reply]

You need to remember that you are separate people, and at this age, this is the time you NEED to do things for yourself, because you get all the big responsibilities of being with someone - if you guys are meant to be together forever, a few years at college isn't going to damage that. Do what's right for YOU, and what's right for your relationship will follow.

[all.is.vanity|0 likes] [|reply]

ps - noticed you have me faved, so adding you back.

[all.is.vanity|0 likes] [|reply]

Thank you for being there for me. your are a real friend. I know we have our ups and downs but it always seems to work out i love you samana. did oyu ask about wed? and what should me you and sarah do after exams next week? omg i got cody a funny card at walmat it with make us laugh

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