So, I ended up having my period starting the 5th....ughhh, they say you are suppose to ovulate 14 days after the first day of ur period so thats coming up....we'll seeee....we've always been pretty good with having sex anyways....we're probably one of the few that have sex about 5 times a week....so Im hoping I will ovulate and we'll hear good news again. My husbands orders say he was going to be leavin 17 June, but my husband has told me he isn't suppose to be leaving until his COL. does, bcuz he is his driver and many other things. So now supposedly he won't be leaving til mid July. I want more than anything to get pregnant again....I think about it consantly....and honestly i still think about the one I lost, I think about how many weeks I would be now....I mean I lost a baby, it maybe called a fetus, but i seen it, and it was my tiny, tiny baby, it had everything,...it was jus tiny...its still been hard...and Im sure I will never forget that moment. I get mad, sad, upset about anyone that is pregnant...one of my girls found out she was pregnant right after me....she would have only been a week behind me....and she just found out what she was having, and she called me right up talking about it....i thougt that was verrry disrespectful...and she just kept talking, i wanted to just hang up on her....fucckkk herr....her husband has 2 kids from a previous marriage, and together they have 2 already, now another.....so 5 kids, and he didn't even want more kids,...she did, for what reason i won't understand, bcuz they barely got by bcuz of him saving for his first 2 kids school and child support....it makes noooo damn since. It just makes me angry. All I want is another baby, someone Olivia can play with and lean on whenever she needs to. I feel like the army has took away alot of our chances, now our children will be more than likely 6 yrs apart....I didn't want that....it hurts, but im holding on and hoping Olivia will have a sibling growing here soon....Keep your fingers crossed, pray, wish...do anything you can think of...bcuz I need this more than anything.
We have more going on too, nothing bad, but Im just exhausted from today....went for a long walk....it just doesn't mix with this heat. We also went to moody gardens in galveston....I have a few pics....I tried to post them on facebook but yea, fb was acting up or something, I'll try to post them again tomorrow. This coming weekend we are going back to Galveston....not that I really want to....His mother irritates the shit outta me....but we are going to schlitterbahn waterpark, and i know that will be a fun time, as long as his bitchass mama dont come along lol....nah she can, but she needs to understand Im not back in her day, and i don't agree with alot of the things she says or wants ppl to follow. I rarely took my mamas advice back in ny....what the hell makes u think ima take yours....When she came down to visit back over a month ago...Olivia had peed the bed....which she NEVER does....that was the first time in over a year or so.....well his mom made a big deal of it....Im like its okay...she just didnt use the bathroom b4 she went to bed, and she had too much milk. Well the next weekend after that....she was talkin to lewis(not me at all) and was like heyyy, i went and bought some nighttime diapers....and he thought she was talking about herself, like she wet the bed lmao....but then she explained it to him....and i was quick to speak up and told her "nooo, we dont need those, Olivia never pees the bed, she jus had a moment, she is 4 she will have a moment like that, but noo i dont want her in no pullups...and Lewis pretty much agreed. What makes her think she can do that....If i thought Olivia needed pullups i would have bought them my damn self!!!! Also WHY would anyone put an almost 5 yr old back in pull ups....let them think its okay to pee at night!! NOOOOO....ugh his mom gets on nerves more than she should. I deal bcuz I know its my hubby's mama and he respects her more than anyone, so Im not gonna sit there in be all rude. But seriously my mom never would cross the lines like his mom does....she needs some dick or something...bcuz she just seems straight up angry most of the time.
Sara Lemons
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