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by ~alex

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Hello, I'm back and in need of help

04/15/2009

title.
Yes, this is my 3rd time creating this diary. I usually use this when i am in a time of need for venting or advice. Right now I need advice.

Kyle is my boyfriend of almost a year and a half. We have a great relationship. Lots of love and support, but.....latly I've been struggling with thoughts of the single life. Of meeting new people and flirting with guys. I miss that. Also Ive been thinking that my life is moving forward. I'm on the correct path to becoming a math teacher and its going to be a rough 2 years. Kyles currently working a landscaping job, with my best friends father and on the path to....nothing. To him college is a thing that he will do aventually (im only 19 i have planty of time) yea and that turns into never going. I never in my entire life would have expected to be thinking that my life might be better w/o him. More concentration on school. Less money spent to feed him when he doesnt understand how to save his money.

The problem Im really having is the things he says and does to me. For instance the past few days i have been really annoyed by him. Everything he did pissed me off and i couldnt hold it back. Well last sat night was my best friend kyms b day dinner and b.c he spent all his money in express i had to pay for the meal. Well kyle likes his beer and he knew that if i payed he couldnt drink at dinner. So he "pregamed" and drank a beer well were in that car halfway there and he tells me he feels nausous. I said "do you want me to take you home?" he said "no" I literaly pull into the parking lot and hes like "I think I need to go home" then says hell stay in the car. I was so infureated by him like wtf this is the second time this has happened. Well he felt better and joined us but still come on! Well today I was talking about my mom, now our familys are 100% different. My mother is neive with everything and i was telling that to kyle, saying that my mother is trying to teach me morals, and hes like what morals? you dont have a religion....im like what the fuck? the morals are what my parents teach me...right and wrong. Hes like exactly you moms morals in this nasty voice. like dont dis my family. He does that all the time, like he was raised really loose and i was raised stricked and he acts like my way is wrong and my parents are asswholes. I would love to have a guy who doesnt disrespect my family. I no i have to confront him but hes closed minded and hardheaded so its him being right and me wrong.

Idk the more i vent the worse i feel. I think of all the bad things hes done and im trying to think of the good, but its like i wanna hang out with him, but when i get there im bored, or i dont wanna cuddle or have sex. And im pretty sure thats the worst sign, when u stop wanting to have sex...Idk what to do. If i end it, ill be miserable w/o him or just misserable bc im alone and i dont want to be. but if i stay i dont wanna feel like this for months and months. Where is the sign that says "Alex you need to leave" or "Alex you found the one"

All i can think about is the conversation with kym i had while we were waiting for a table and kyle was sleeping in my car. She said "No offence, but you can do better" and thats what hits me in the face. I no for a fact I can do better....and the question is do i wait and see if its a just a faze, or do i completly distroy someone who has been broken so many times and possibly regret it. Help me



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wow if things wont get better by talking to him Then Theres No hope for u 2. He has to be willing to talk and want to work with you on ur relationship. He has to take responsibility for his spending habits. You shouldnt have to pay for him all the time. But each couple does things different with spending and Paying for things. Write things out on paper that u want to talk bout together that needs work for you both. Good luck. Take care and Have a great day.
Love,
Jess

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[*Racky*|0 likes] [|reply]

Wow that's tough... you do need to talk with him and explain everything. And it's tough when you guys are treading down different paths in life.

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third times a charm welcome back to bloop
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[iHEARTJOZiAH|0 likes] [|reply]

Well, if your life is moving on and you don't feel like he's going to be the one to keep up, then I think you should think about moving forward or talk to him about how your life is moving forward.
Good luck. =)

[lady serendipity.|0 likes] [|reply]

Maybe you should take some time apart from him. Youre young (as am I), and it's good to experiment with new personalities and meet new people at this age.

[xo heather|0 likes] [|reply]

My suggestion would be to end things, at least for a short while, and see what happens. It sounds like he still has quite a bit of growing up to do and unless something drastic happens to him, it doesn't sound like it will happen soon.
If you can't talk to him about things, that's a dead end right there. And if you feel worse about your relationship the more you think about the bad things, that's a clear sign that it needs to end.
I know it's hard, because you want to see the good in him, and you want to look at what little good there might be and hold onto it. Been there, done that, believe me. It's not the easiest thing to just let go, but it's possible.
And for your mental health, it sounds to me like this joker needs to go by the wayside.
But good luck hon, and I'll keep you in my prayers.
In the end, you need to do what you feel is best for you, and don't worry about anyone else, even him.
Take care,
~Caitlyn.

[ChaosKitten.|0 likes] [|reply]

Sound like you two could use a break. Not break up, but just take some time apart. Oh, and welcome back.

[sexytoothpaste|0 likes] [|reply]

sounds like you already know what you should be doing hon

[Meghans Follie|0 likes] [|reply]

Well, I'm pretty much in the same situation, so maybe this could help the both of us. I've been dating my b/f for about 8 months, although we already broke up twice before. He is 24 (I'm 18). He (ugh) is my sister's ex, which is screwed up I know. He works with his dad doing construction. He makes decent money, but I'm always telling him, as good as he is with math, he can be doing so much better and make so much more. (He still lives with his parents.) He has been saying he's going to go get his GED, but of course, never does. Now every time I mention the GED thing, he says he don't need to hear that from me too, and that he had to listen to it all the time.
Here lately, I've had the same feelings. I miss the single life. I miss being able to do what I want without the guilt. I don't want to sleep with him anymore. I'm gettin to where I don't even want to kiss him.
I plan on talking to him about this at some point in time. I've told him before my feelings just aren't therese anymore, but I keep trying to get them back. I don't want to hurt him. So I know, mostly, how you feel.
I'd just do what everyone else is saying and try to talk it out. Maybe the talk will help you realize whether or not you two need to be together.
Hope things work out for the better. Good luck!

[minor_catastrophe|0 likes] [|reply]

Personally, I would never stand a significant other that disrespects my family (or me). If I were you, I would give him a slap across the face for such uncalled for actions.
Sounds like you're better off without him; it's definitely more important having your independance and focusing on your studies than worrying about him.
Don't let him break up with you first; go to him and tell him that your life is moving forward and you're done with him, =].

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