how do i get better. | 02/27/2009 |
I don't know why I'm so upset about everything with Grant. If he's got his secrets then surely that's okay, I've got secrets of my own - including my boyfriend!
This is why I don't date guys, because I'm way too insecure and paranoid. I fall way too easily and far too quickly. No wonder Grant has backed off, I think I suffocated him with attention.
I went to LiveJournal for some more rational explanations for the phone fiasco of last night. Click here for my entry in a community, it's proved popular and I got some pretty decent replies to soothe my insanity.
I'm going out tonight with the girls from work, I'm not really in the mood but I think it's what I need. I need to get drunk and forget about Grant! I'll probably end up drunk and phoning him again, or messaging something awful on Facebook at midnight! I want to tell him how I feel and using my possible drunken state is a good excuse! lol.
i have to go shower and start to get ready. I'm meeting a friend in the city to finish shopping for tonight then meeting one of the girls after work and the party begins. I'm really not in the mood. |
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Hmm, maybe you did suffocate him a bit with attention - it's easy to do, especially when they seem so into you at first!! I really think the best way to get his attention again is to try not to contact him - leave your phone at home tonight! Trust me, it's so hard to do but it works! Have a fab night out, I'll think of you when I'm out drunk with my friends too yay! Hehe! Take care, love you xxxxx
Doesn't your facebook say you have a boyfriend? I was wondering that... because you said he messages you there...