I've been putting off writing a new entry because I'm still not too sure where my head is with everything, it's a bit all over the place and I think that will come across in what I write.
It turns out that Grant's date went well. He likes her and he thinks she's into him as well. So yeah, I was a bit crushed on Saturday when I found out this piece of information. I've not text him since I found out either, and he's not got in touch with me. Although I'm tempted to Superpoke him on Facebook.....lol. But I shall not, I can't pick the right action!
I wonder if I'm finally over it. He's still on my mind a lot, but not as much.
I wondered if I liked him so much because a part of him was my own imagination, there were parts of him that weren't real, parts I'd made up. I made Grant into this perfect person and that is why I got hurt. I have an over-active imagination and because he was on my mind so much I think I might have exaggerated the things he said and misread his words and turned him into someone I wanted him to be. I've had a lot of time to think about this, especially having three days with no contact with Grant, it's helped to clear my head.
I still want to meet Grant, but I'm no longer desperate to do it. I want to see him just to see if what I was doing to myself was or would be worth it. I still have this urge to know him, like, really know him.
Me and James spent a nice day together on Sunday. We went into town and he bought a few bits and pieces. It was nice to walk around, it felt good. I spoke with James about moving house a bit more, I think it would really help us right now to have a change of some sort without me having an affair......lol. I searched the internet and found a few places, it's kind of hard to find somewhere because we live so close to where he works and where I will soon be working that we can walk to work. So, we don't really want to move away from this area because it would be really inconvenient for getting to and from work. I want to arrange some viewings, I need this.
James will be home any minute, so I better save this and maybe write more on my day off which is tomorrow. ♥ |
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Whoops!affair? Teasing. 
Doing things to avoid that would be nice, though. Affairs generally aren't too wonderful and are looked down upon. Like cannibalism. 
Good luck with the possible move. Men. It happens...maybe this one is just meant to be let go. As in Grant perhaps.