Day three of this horrible punishment..

Well, i'm still sick.
I'm hoping that Ethan and Amy can find another babysitter for today.
Because i'm not going to be able to go.
Yesterday was horrible enough, I can't go today.

I read a lot of the old forum posts a little while ago.
The news ones made me pretty sad.

I mean, here I am pregnant.
And you see all this stuff about people killing their babies, or people abusing their children.
It's enough to break your heart.

I honestly don't understand what goes through the minds of these people.
There are so many couples, so many people in general, that want so badly to have kids.
And they can't.

And people like THAT are the ones that get blessed with these new little lives.
And they could care less about them.
It seems to me that they could care less about anyone but themselves.
How stupid can a person be?

It's beyond words for me at this point.
I really have no idea what to say..

I've also been thinking a lot about the little baby (Who I have now decided to call "Grape face" due to something I read telling me that it's the size of a grape. lol) growing inside me.

What all am I going to teach little Grape face as he/she grows older?
What type of stuff will we do together?
Will I be a good mom?

I can think of a million different things that I want to do.
But will I be able to do them?

I want to teach my baby to read.
I want to take him/her to the park.
I want to him/her to grow up well informed.
And also happy.

And these, plus a million other thoughts, are what i'm thinking about as I sit here eating my ice cream (it feels AMAZING on my throat) and update.

I dunno though.
All I can do is try, and learn some things along the way as well.

I can't wait for my little one to get here...

That's all for now.

<3

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