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Unexpected

12/25/2008

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I was with a guy for over a year. Things didn't turn out the way I expected so I had to end it. It was for my own good and probably for his too. After him, I didn't want to be with anyone else. I was done getting my heart broken by guys who are nice for 3 months and then change completely to show you the real side of them.

During the summer I was not with anyone. I was in the single life working and trying to focus on my future schooling that would take up the next 4 years of my life at college. I felt like I was not attracted to any guys at all. It was weird, but I didn't care. I didn't want to go to college in a relationship because I felt like I needed to put all my attention on school. I knew that if I would be in a relationship I would have so many other stresses.

By the end of the summer I met this guy through my best friend. I personally thought he was a fool. Yeah he made me laugh, but it was just weird. I didn't really talk to him. After the second time hanging out, he told me he was interested. By the day before he left for school, I was all his.

It was amazing how good he made me feel when I didn't want anything to do with him. I wasn't looking for him at all. The day after everything was official, I didn't know what I got myself into. It's been a few months now and things are great. We've grown to love each other and I'm happy that has happened, but there are still times where I feel like I've done the wrong thing to be with him. I don't know why either because he makes me so happy and I feel like I would be completely lonely without him. I've never been through something that was unexpected like this before. I don't know what will come of it...

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I can relate, actually!

[lithium layouts.Star|0 likes] [|reply]

"I didn't want to go to college in a relationship because I felt like I needed to put all my attention on school."

That's how I feel. I think it's also a very good thing

[Harley QuinnStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I am glad that you are giving this guy a chance. My fiance took me by surprise too. At the point in my life when I met him, I truly felt like what I needed and was supposed to be doing was to just stay single for a good long while (had just gotten out of a five year relationship). The first month I wasn't too sure what was going to happen or where we would end up, but thing changed quickly and we feel completely in love. Obviously we are engaged so you can see where we are currently going, and we've been together for three years now. But yeah, it's good to take chances on people and on life. You might be surprised, and YOU were.

[JanesseStar|0 likes] [|reply]

You feel like you did the wrong thing because you had a set course of action in mind (to stay single), felt it was a very good idea, and then did the complete opposite. That's why you FEEL that way, but that doesnt necessarily mean that it's true. If you're both happy, that's all that matters. You dont make it seem like he's putting too much stress on you, and you seem smart enough to not let this get in the way of your future. You should be fine =)

[Poetic Justice|0 likes] [|reply]

Love is about more than just the right person, it's also about the right timing. I've dated a couple great guys, but the timing just wasn't right.
I wish you luck, but if you are happy then don't question it!

[xo heather|0 likes] [|reply]

aw!

[StaRRyEyDSupRizStar|0 likes] [|reply]

there's nothing wrong with making yourself and someone else happy at the same time ^_^

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