I came home at the tail end of 2017, out of desperation, and have ever since been a burden to my family. They have to feed me. and deal with the sickness that has taken over my life. How much of it is my fault? How much of it is the targeters faults? How much of it is the spirituals fault? These deep heart wrenching emotions pour out of me like water, because I haev never known anything else. I dont know what its like to be hard hearted. To see someone suffering and feel nothing. I have not any experience with that see. And thing is........Noone on here knows who I really am. What I have really done, and who I have reallly turned into as a result of pretending all these years? This program had ripe territory in me, let me tell you. I want to tell you who I am, but it requires becoming a monster in your eyes and I DONT know how to deal with this.