I feel like a failure. It's my daughters first Christmas and no one is in the Christmas Spirit. She doesn't even get a real tree. We are living at my parents house. Which is honestly killing me. My unemployment is done. I feel like I'm just hurting my daughter. I can't get a job. Ive applied every where. My boyfriend just wants me to stay at home till she's 1. I can't do that. Not living here. I cook and clean ect but it still isn't enough and we pay rent. I've just had it. I feel like I'm not going to make it.