this is no place to try and live my life

02/02/2009

strike

Mom wants me to start talking to my dad again which is NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I told her I was sorry but if she wants to be willingly unhappy then I can't really help her but I don't. I'm not going to talk to someone who doesn't give a shit if I talk to him or not; who doesn't care for his kids; who treats everyone else way better than his own family, etc. No fucking way. I am HAPPY not talking to him. I'm sorry if it bothers her, really, but I don't feel like I need to talk to him, and now I don't even want to be around him. I know ALL of the shit he's done to my mom and what he's doing to my brother and I'm not going for it.

I have a math exam today that I have not studied for. It shouldn't be too hard because it's on chapter one which was just review from math 118. I hope I do well on it but in any case, I'm going to study for it this afternoon.

I'm actually skipping my morning class so I can take a shower because my scalp:
1. has lots of scabs
2. is itchy as hell
3. has blood on it because I keep scratching and taking off the scabs.
It's a scalp condition I have which is hereditary but controllable and I need to wash it with a special shampoo and other shenanigans. My dad and his damn genes...

We are almost finished remodeling my room. I have to throw some papers in the recycling and then just have my drywall fixed. Mom and I put up my new shelves from awesome IKEA and hung my TV on it's stand so now it's like super high. I organized bookshelf number 1 and this weekend I'm going to organize my other one. Finally, I'm going to get rid of my nightstand and my desk (sell them possibly) and use a nightstand that you hang on the wall (from IKEA) and have my desk area empty which is where my dog will sleep.

Now all I have to do is look for a new job. This one isn't working out for me anymore (at least not in the mornings). I love being there in the afternoon but mornings with Julie aren't the same anymore.

Anyway I'm off to shower and then to study. Yay...not.