Day 3 � My Parents

07/26/2010

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My Parents,

So, I've got a lot of letters to write. One to each of my real parents. And one to both of my grandparents (they adopted me).

Mom,
While I've grown up with you not being around a lot, I still think a lot of you. You are after all, my momma. You've taught me a lot...and let me learn my own lesson a lot more. I know you may regret giving me up to gramma and papa, but it may of been the best thing you could of done. While I got to spend time with you too, got to spend a lot with gramma and papa. And get to know them in a way that I may not of ever got to know them before.

I know I'm moving away, and we may either get closer or get further apart, but either way, you're still my mommy, and Ill always come to you for stuff. Whether it be as simple as "OWE MY PIGGIES!" or if Caleb and I have had it out and I just need a break.

Thank you for what you've taught me, and for what you'll teach me in the years to come. I'm glad I can call you my momma.
<3 Zoe

Dad,
Where to start? You've been absent for about 15 years of my 17 year life. Growing up, I always wondered what would of been different in my life if you would of been around. I always awaited your visits anxiously, always disappointed when you didn't show up. Birthday after birthday. Christmas after Christmas. Year after year.

I came to the conclusion that you loved your new wife and boys more than you could ever care about me. I became frustrated. I just wanted to tell you off. Write you off. But, it didn't happen. For the most part, I just pretended you didn't exist.

Your back surgery became the turning point. While I hate that it's causing you so much pain...I'm glad you had it. If it hadn't of been for the surgery. For you and Lisa needing a place to move to that was cheaper. A place that you'd have more people to help out...I may not of got to see you for another 5 years at least. You wouldn't of walked me down the aisle at my wedding. You wouldn't be around now. I wish that it hadn't of taken a back surgery gone wrong to bring you back into my life.

While you're my dad, I just want you to know that you don't take the number one "dad" spot in my life. Due to you being gone, that spot always has, and always will, belong to papa. Sorry, but that's how it is.

<3 Zoe

Gramma,

Where to start, old lady? You've raised me forever, and I can't imagine a time in which you weren't around. You've been to all the parent teacher conferences, to the band concerts, listening to all the horrible screechy beginning saxophone playing, the boyfriend fights, the boyfriend drama, everything. You're the best gramma ever, and I'm glad to call you mine.

I'm sorry for all the times I've jumped at you. Unfortunately, you've always been around, always been the easy target. :/ Sorry. If it helps any to know, it was never meant to be at you. Just child and teenage frustration. You've been there.

Thank you for putting up with me as much as you have. It means a lot that you're still here, after all this, I know that losing papa really hurt, but you're holding up amazingly. You're a very strong woman, and I'm very proud of you.

<3 Zoe

Papa,
I miss you. I don't know why you had to go when you did, but apparently, it was your time. I miss you so much, and I wish you were still here. My last band concert, graduation, wedding, college...you're missing it all. Although, I know you're watching from above, wishing you could congratulate me in your non-congratulatory way or bop me on the head for being an idiot. I just want you to know, I love you and miss you.

<3 Zoe