I cant say if i've been changed for the better.........

By next month her credit card will be paid off and gone, i'm attempting to fix her car insurance as she doesnt need the astronomical amount she has, as she isnt driving her car and i only drive it to my back yard to park once a month. The creature who shall not be named got his 1600 SS check yesterday, and has already spent 500 of it. Hes not a me problem anymore, i paid the cable bill, and he can deal with his other child now. 

I emailed the financial advisor, I dealt with my landlord, I put in an application for another place to live (dont EVEN get me started about that process)....

 

Hospice says mom is in her active dying stage. They asked my sister if there was anyone she was holding on to say bye to..... i said "death doesnt work like that". Am I the only one who 1. thinks hospice/old age homes are just con shows and 2. find no comfort in these people being around?  My sister swears by the chaplin (no pun intended) says she doesnt preach the bible and is really nice.... that i should talk to her. Lets see, a religious person, whos paid to make the end of days easier on the family? no thanks.... i'm fine on my own. i dont need to talk to anyone else. I might seek out a support group when all is said and done, but i just think the whol hospice ordeal is a con game. "shes in her end of days......".... they tell us this every week. She was awake, asking for food and refusing pain meds when i last saw her. End of days? 2 weeks ago she was drooling on herself and speaking incoherently. I'd say the way she was monday was an imporvement. Hanging on for someone? my mother is a tough old bird who will only leave this mortal coil when she is good and god damn ready. I know there is a little lady in there, grandpa joeing her way around..... i try and be nice to hospice, the nurses, because they take care of her when i cant, but i just think its a way to get more money. 

 

oh well, i am off to do something? I hope the day finds you well. 

 

xWasp