ugghh.

I don't know how many of you read my previous entry, but tonight really pissed me off. So I still live with my ex boyfriend and he's making me so mad. He invited over this girl that he likes that is also a painting major, so i know her pretty well and have had quite a few classes with her. anyways, he asked her if she remembered this jazz concert that he played in a few years ago where he left in the middle of the concert to go puke outside in the snow bank. He asked HER if she remembered this. SHE was not the one that had to tell his director that he was sick. NO it was ME that had to tell him. but of course he asks her if she remembers. don't you think i would remember it more clearly? anyways. after he asked her that i may have been out of it for a few moments, just staring into space and not really talking much. He said that i was acting like a bitch when i was doing that. I'm just thinking, how is that any normal than different. I mean, i'm naturally a shy person, so i don't tend to talk a whole lot during big group things. but he says that like three people texted him and asked him why i was acting like a bitch. First of all, i don't think that is even possible. because when he sent that text, there were only 5 people there. me, him, the girl he likes, her friend, and another girl. the last girl wouldn't have his phone number to text him because she's not from here, and so that would only leave 2 people that would have texted him to ask why i was being such a bitch. and i don't really think that they would have done that....i think he was just making it up. anyways. i hate it because he's SOO hipocrytical! I wil ask him if i can use some sort of food of his, and he always acts like he's annoyed or pissed off. But he will use my food, sometimes without even asking! so it's ok for him to use my food but not ok for me to use his?! Another thing that is hypocritcal of him is that he doesn't want me to ask anymore where he is or where he's been. Ok, fine. I stopped doing it. It's just that he will sometimes come home when i'm the only one here and ask where everyone else is. Why does he get to know where people are but i don't? I don't know, he doesn't make sense to me. And he says i'm the craziest person he's ever known. I know i may be a little crazy, but hey, who isn't, right? i don't know, i just want to leave this place. I hate it so much now! I can't wait to be done and move on to the next stage of my life! I also just really want to find a boyfriend. just so i'm not so alone. that's going to be hard though.

Sorry i guess i'm just a little annoyed right now at him. I should really go to bed. that would be nice. good night!