I swear every time I write here, something bizarre happens in my life. It is so damn weird. Anyways though I am not having surgery because the hospital called me yesterday and was asking me for a copay to get hospitalized. And before you think well duh, insurances require that but I have insurance that covers my copays and I have never ever paid a copay ever. So that is why I did not think to save a copay (2k) or anything if the hospital would of told me months before then I would of saved at the min half of it. So I canceled it, and it totally sucks but I am going to continue my pre-op liquid diet since I am already on it anyways. I am going to do it for two weeks and see if I could lose some weight. I am super down about this and it just sucks but I have to get over it and accept it ain't happening. Maybe when I move I will be able to but for now it ain't happening. Then I got rejected from another job in Cali just today and it just sucks because I just feel like it will never happen at this point. Obviously I just feel super down right now but I won't give up. I am now going back to applying to jobs since I have nothing now holding me back. Check out my blogs!