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I am so drained for energy today. Couldn't sleep well last night. Sat up & watched Master doze for awhile, came and read around a bit on here, etc etc etc, but I just couldn't sleep til about 4. And..well, I get up at 5:30. So, 4 REALLY isn't a good idea. What an idiot! Ah well I guess, what are ya gonna do? Frustrating. I haven't done much, been just kinda relaxing mainly. Just got started on my work day, since I didn't have any real time pressing issues. Yay for telecommuting. LOVEEEE it. Had to put my tattoo off...Quite bummed about it. The Artist was in a wreck this morning, totalled his jeep. He's sore & a bit banged up, but not seriously hurt - but not steady handed right now, either. SO, it'll likely be sometime next week instead. Kinda bummed, but, totally glad that he's ok. That's the big thing. A & B are sitting on Master & I's bed, playing with toy cars. It's adorable. They are seriously the absolute best of friends, it does my heart good. A has a tendancy to make up words when he's upset or something, and of course, being siblings, they argue a lot - even if they ARE best friends, they're siblings before that. lol. He keeps calling her a "snifflediffle" when she does something he doesn't like. Ahh, kids. Master called earlier & told me to make other plans tonight, he's not coming directly home. Going out with the boys. Hah, yeah. Sounds harmless, but it's sooo not like most guys. Thinking I will call my favorite girl & get a little time with her in. Both being mothers, we don't have much time for each other, but, there's nothing that compares to the touch of a woman. They KNOW how women want to be touched. Her soft skin, gentle curves...She's 6 months pregnant and GOD it's sexy as hell to watch her stomach & chest grow. She's nothing but soft skin & gorgeous curves right now. So gorgeous. I can't say she really understands the relationship between Master & I, but, at least she's not judgemental. So many people are...it gets rather old. Thinking very seriously about redecorating the living room & possibly our room. Things are just getting a bit old, it'd be nice to mix it up some. I'm thinking kindof a beigey neutral for the living room, with maybe a dark blue accent...and for the bedroom, burgundy & copper. Will have to see what Master thinks about it before I start, but, I have a feeling he won't object too much. Especially to the bedroom. Haven't changed a thing since we bought the place in there yet - the walls of our room have this awful white wallpaper with cherry blossoms on it. It's quite hideous - and the carpet is pink. PINK! I love love love pink...But I must say I am alone in that respect haha. Master is NOT amused by it. It'd be nice to get to be creative & redo everything. Master & I have been recently discussing marriage. Making everything offical & legal. In our hearts, we're honestly already married. We've both introduced each other that way for awhile now. It's not going to go over well with our families, but, it's not their life to be happy with. His family thinks I am too young, which, to them, translates into being immature & unready for a serious relationship, and my family feels that, at 16 years my senior, he is too old - my Mother has gone as far as to call him a pedophile. I'm in my 20's! To make an accusation like that, is ludacris. I'm completely legal. It really bothers me to hear them talk about him that way. He's a good man. We're a good couple. We balance each other out. I can just imagine the fiasco if they were to find out more details of our life together. Hah..Thank god they won't. The idea of marrying him...makes me positively giddy. I can't wait! We'll likely just have a small civil ceremony at the court house - neither of our famillies will approve enough to come and see it, but, our friends are amazing, so, we'll not be celebrating alone. I do want a dress though. I've not been married before...he has, but I haven't. I want a wedding dress. If I wore a wedding dress to the court house, how many funny looks do you think I'd get?! Hah, I almost don't even care. I want a dress. Think I'm going to make chili tonight for dinner. This weather has totally got me bummed, and chili sounds fabulousssss. I hate winter...ready for summer to be back asap. The way weather swings here, I'm sure that come summer I'll be hoping for winter again, but....I really don't. I hate winter. I hate cold. I hate snow & ice & sleet & dreary days. I want to go out, go swimming, enjoy the feeling of the sun dancing off my skin. I'm so fair that it literally just bounces back off, hah, I can't tan. But it's so nice. Mmmm.