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06/04/2011

I really miss the days when things were simple. I miss when me and James were just mates and there was nothing more there. For over a year now it’s been painfully fucking complicated. I know I was the one that made all the decisions (breaking up, not getting back together) but yea, stupid to carry on with the sex like I did, it seemed pretty simple at the time, I didn't realise what shit it would create. Things started looking alright in that area a little while ago and I felt like I was really over it, until Nicky (rather carelessly) told me he was intending to propose to his girlfriend :/ I found myself just going quiet at that point, didn’t know what to say. For starters they’ve known eachother for about 3 months… Bit quick! But that’s not really my place to say. I was surprisingly gutted to hear that. It’s confusing as hell when you have no idea how you feel about someone, let alone when that someone is a good friend of yours and has been for 8 years. I’d very much like someone to take my mind off this please!!