It's been a month since Mikes's death and it still feels weird he isn't here anymore I am still a bit angry he jaywalked. If only I had been with him on the day of his accident, I could have saved him from Jaywalking, and he would still be alive today. I know it wasn't his time to die regarding his accident, but he met his early demise which should not have happened due to his jaywalking.
I hate 2023.
I am dreading my upcoming birthday and Christmas in December since I know Mike isn't going to be here to exchange Christmas gifts.
My mum is moving to that retirement place on the Sunday after Halloween I feel like once she moves there I will feel as if she's already died and is leaving me especially now that Mike is gone.
Tuesday is Halloween and I have nothing planned. I tried carving out a free pumpkin yesterday, but it did not turn out due to issues with my hand-eye coordination when carving out the pumpkin, so I ended up tossing it out. However, I did get another pumpkin, but I am not sure what I am going to do with it. I may try getting someone to help carve out a pumpkin for me OR just give my unused uncared pumpkin to someone. Since I have nothing planned for Halloween. I will be stuck at home again on Halloween like I normally would be, and I know if Mike were still alive, he would most likely be going to those Halloween parties at Pathways like he always had gone to year after year.
I had a dream last night about Mike, the only thing I can recall was of him visiting me. It is the first time I had a dream about Mike since he died. I guess my dream about Mike is his way of letting me know he is OK.
I just emailed Mike's younger sister to see how she is doing and so forth. It will be interesting to see if she even replies
I still have not yet booked my COVID shot but I'm going to try to book it for some time next week.
I don't know when I will be writing next, I really do not have much to say or write about and my interest in writing on a diary site kind of died quite some time ago. This is why I may not renew my open diary subscription after my trial run expires on November 14th. Plus, nobody really notes me either on Open Diary or even here in Bloop. However, regardless of what I decide my diary on Bloop will still be around
That's all for now