.x. Stressed out

le strike

Jeez, shit has been crazy.  I have opted out of telling ANYONE I'm pregnant, because honestly, everyone will just be devastated.  Merle was supposed to be my last.  We hit a few bumps in the road, and I haven't gotten to enjoy Merle like I wanted by no means.  I was robbed of that.  Maybe God's plan was to give me another to make up for those things....but I just...I'm still not happy.  It's happening, so I'm going to take care of myself and the baby, but right now I'm still not happy.  David told his mom.  And then Amanda (Emilee and Josh's mom) wanted to bring the kids over because she has shingles.  Great.  Emmy and Josh haven't had chicken pox yet.  When you have shingles, you're not supposed to be around pregnant women.  So I don't know if Emmy and Josh can carry it with them, so I'm hiding in the bedroom with the door shut just to take extra precautions.  Today is me and David's 4 year anniversary, and he called me a bitch as soon as we woke up because I don't want to take the chance of hurting this baby or me getting sick.  I just WON'T.  I love Emmy and Josh, and they know I do.  I feel bad, but I'm just NOT going to take that chance.  So David told Amanda I was pregnant too.  So Shelia and Amanda knew yesterday.  Shelia calls my mom and tells her.  Shelia also tells Elizabeth and Tam.  Tam is a family "friend"....Shelia's ex....she used to be a lesbian.  I swear, this family CANNOT keep a secret.  I have told no one, besides bloop.  But I'm not for sure if mom told dad or not.  Sucks.  Everyone on my side is devastated, I already know.  David's side is questionable.  I know there's a lot of gossip going on, I'm sure.  Anyways, I'm done.  I'll try to update later.