& I can guarantee that'll you'll miss me and wonder why you let me leave. Not a lot has gone on... Just been working non-stop. Looking for other jobs. Saturday was crazy at work... cus of it being Memorial Day weekend. & Jess was being a bitch to me, like normal. I'm so sick of her shit. I'm going to start applying at bars & state shops. A big change has happened; Cj and I are no longer talking I think... he started drinking again, and he used to be a very very bad alcoholic.... would vanish for days because he'd stay drunk for days at a time. and I saw him drinking a beer last night and I was like "you're drinking again & you didn't tell me?" and he said "I didn't wanna tell you because I knew it would upset you" and I said " damn right I'm upset, CJ. I think this is the first time you've ever made me cry and he felt so guilty, I can tell by the way he was acting and the way he looked at me. And I said "I love you too much for you to go down the same path you were on before, I don't want to see you like that, you were doing so good with being sober. You were so happy." and he said "No, I was doing horribly" and I said "I thought I was a good enough reason for you to stop " and he said "I don't think anyone can help me... because the path on I'm on now is far worse than the one I was on before, I'm sorry, Autumn" and I said " well I feel pre'damn stupid for thinking I could have helped you stopped drinking " and he said "Sorry" and he signed off.. So, this kinda feels like a break up to me.... him & I talked as if we were boyfriend & girlfriend, but never had the title, so it's hard having him out of my life now.. It's really weird, but.... I can't surround myself with that, if he were to ever come back, sober & back to how he used to be, I would take him back in a heartbeat.... but that's not going to happen So... Yeah, something was telling me not to trust him fully, and I'm glad I listened, cus this would have hurt so much more worse if I did trust him. I could tell he was hiding something from me, too for the past couple days, he was acting differently, & I finally found out. So, if he ever wants to talk, I'm here, but I'm not going to talk to him first Well, on another note. We have a new guy at work, who does business office like me.. his name is Stefan and he 's fucking weird as shit. It's been 4 days. & he does the robot... yes. the robot and sings to Katie Perry.... Yes, KATY PERRY in this high pitched voice. & he is dirty looking, and just the things he says and does makes me really go "what the fuck...seriously?" It's been like 4 days, you do NOT act liike this yet, people think he's really weird, no one in Business Office likes him because he's so weird. and we're all pre'sure he's gay. But he's so greasy looking, shaggy dark hair, nerdy glasses, kinda chunky.... this kid seriously is, so weird... >_>
So there's your update, folks. Enjoy. |
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