black.rainbow.lyts
I'm about to crack
Today at work was awful. Tonight at home was almost worse. I'm so freaking mad right now, I could just explode. Frankie and I got into it at work, I'm tired of him being so damn lazy. So we got into a yelling match, I sent him home and told the assistant manager I was done dealing with him until someone talked to him about the bullshit. Then my mom calls to say that Austin is sick, his nose is running, he's got a fever and just overall doesn't feel good. So I text Cliff to call me asap. So he calls me and after I tell him what's going on, he's like well I have more bad news. And I was like wait, are you drunk? Cause you sound drunk. He's like well I had like a 6 pack or a 12 pack or so. I was like wtf. He's like I opened the door and Charmin got out and I can't find him. Oh no. I was so upset. So I'm upset at work, he's drunk and being an asshole. So he packed up the stuff he had here and left, without finding the dog. Well I'm at work and I can't leave cause I have to close the store. So by the time I got home, Cliff and most of his stuff is gone, my dog is still missing and so is the gray cat. I know the cat will come back, he sneaks out all the time, but I have to keep such a close eye on Charmin if he gets out without a leash cause he takes off, so usually I make him have a leash. Cliff did take his dog though, so now its just me and the black cat, waiting for the gray cat and Charmin to come home. I've been crying most of the night, I've got a headache and I threw up earlier from crying so much. I just want a nice stable life, with a guy with a job and a car and a drivers license. I want my dog to come home. I want my kid to feel better. I want to stop feeling like a self induced coma is a good solution. I know when i wake up all my problems will be 10 fold. So oh well, its over, and I'm so sad.
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