Whenever I sit down to write I get distracted, I start an entry and never finish it or I just totally draw a blank and after sitting here for 10 minutes trying to find something to write I give up. I want a baby. That's what my problem is. I've got the most awesome 5 year old son but I'm love to try for a daughter, I'd love to try for another son. It's what I want. No I'm not in the position in my life to have one but that's what I want. I've been talking about this for a while with some friends and it seems like every time I start to think about it someone else ends up pregnant. Yes its a coincidence but still it sucks. Amber, a good friend is pregnant and has been staying here on and off for a few weeks since she's having issues with her mom and is single. She's 19, the baby's dad is a loser and her mom is being extremely protective and controlling. None of this is my business so when she asked for a place to crash I was totally willing to let her stay. Yes I'm running a homeless shelter lol, not really but you'd think that.
She's going on 6 months pregnant now and she's really starting to show. This is hard for me since I'm really wanting to have a baby. I've been sucking it up and living through her. It's really cool feeling the baby move since I remember what it was like, it was awesome. A lot of my faves on here are pregnant, have been pregnant and recently had a baby or are trying to get pregnant. I really need to stop thinking about it. Oh and I found out today my younger cousin is pregnant too. So yup, I'm about a wreck, all emotional and wanting. Fuck me.