What hurts the most.

05/22/2012

You know what hurts the most? When someone you care for says mean things about you behind your back. Why is it so hard to try and be nice to people. I am just as guilty as others on this topic, which is why I am starting over and making sure I don't say anything to offend anyone. Well besides the customers at work of course.

On the plus side I had an awesome time at Cedar Point. On the downfall things have been hectic around here. Attempting to let my boyfriend do his own thing, easier said than done. My only issue is that he claims he wants to go somewhere with a friend, then changes his mind, and blames it on yours truly because he doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings so it kinda makes me look and feel like an ass. Another thing is he wants to go to the bar, which is something I will have a hard time getting over. Being drunk DOES make you change your logic and decision it's a well proven fact. Great example is drinking while driving, sounds good, then you wake up in jail. It's just common sense. And yes I do get scared he will cheat on me, there is temptation to cheat while being sober as when someone is drunk however, don't most people become more outgoing when they are drunk, or friendlier, and more confident. Many of these things can change the way you are acting not making you in the right state of mind. But I am going to trust him and hope for the best. On the other hand I am trying to build up some confidence I have lost through out the years passing, so hopefully this will help when I am put in these kind of situations. I'm glad that I have a few friends that have helped me get my minds off things.

But something has been really bothering me that I need to get off my chest, I have been told multiple times, by different people that my friends, co workers and other random people don't like me because of how I act. I hope all of these people continue to talk about me because from this point on I will be moving on to much bigger and greater things to worry about what all you fat bitches have to say about me. This is the point of time where I begin to be me again. Get ready bitches here I come.